Empty Soul

Originally a song I wrote way back Feb 10, 2008, changed a couple things so I could share. It was written about a specific moment in my life where things weren't good.

 

Nothing's ever perfect
Nothing's ever fair
I look into these eyes
And see this blank stare

Frayed since my creation
Abandoned from the start
My mother never loved my dad
And it breaks my f*****g heart!

Made to disappoint
Destined to fail
Created for your laughter
Only I could never tell

I am so pathetic
It’s so sad to see
I am just a worthless liar
but that’s what you made of me

That’s why you did it
That’s why you left me empty
Torn between my family
And it’s not sad for you to see

Why me? Why me?
What did I do to deserve this empty destiny?
Why me? Why me?
Take my empty soul and leave me free to be

You gave me life
But left me in this empty hole
So take my life
And my empty soul

 

Author's Note

Please share your thoughts :)

Reviews

[Dani The Unreviewed]

Wow....I'd share a song to answer this, but it's not on English, and i couldn't translate yet. . so ....

i can relate to this, all too well. (except for being a liar.)

but, take a quick note, we're all here for you :)
you're not worthless.
:)
you're one of a kind. no one could even think about asking for a better friend :)

i loved the write
full rating

[Dani The Unreviewed]

www.writerscafe.org/writing/Danny15/1700613/ play tha song while reading :)

[Dani The Unreviewed]

And you're welcome.

[AaronFreitas]

Awesome song to read to by the way! Almost couldn't even read your review I have my guitar on my couch next to me I wanted to start playing haha... I appreciate your feedback buddy :)

[Dani The Unreviewed]

hehehe : )

[Ashley Renegade]

The absolute despair that this poem emotes it gut wrenching! The feelings that I am sure many children from broken homes feel, and don't know how to express are being shared in this poem with you as their mouth piece.

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you Ashley :) I like to write about the experiences I've been through... good or bad. I'm glad you found the meaning in my words :) Appreciate your review

[Ashley Renegade]

My pleasure!

[Willard Wells]

Very good Aaron in a sad and painful way. I know from your writing that you have connection with this pain. Hopefully you are more on the outside looking in now rather than under all the pain. One of your best.

Your life and your future is your girls. Peace out.

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you Willard :) Like I mentioned this one was from 08 yet it relates perfectly to the way things have been this past year. I appreciate your review my friend :)

[Willard Wells]

Enjoy you work.

[AaronFreitas]

I appreciate that :) You preparing for El Nino? Looks like we are getting the rain we asked for :)

[Willard Wells]

Sorry but no. I hope it happens, but from last I heard we are at least 2 weeks out before we see anything like rain. Couple of sprinkles maybe next Monday and Tuesday. Keep the dream alive my friend. Hopefully all the rain and flooding around us will refill some of the aquifer

[AaronFreitas]

We definitely need it... I just worry about some of the smaller farm towns flooding as we've seen before.

[Willard Wells]

We are at 139% of snow pack today, which to me is a waste since the final check in spring is the one that matters. They said we need to be at 150% this year. so far, so good.

[AaronFreitas]

That's a positive... I'm going to have to take my daughters up to the snow soon!

[Willard Wells]

This week is ugly with the holiday traffic, but a nice sled day would make your at least "SuperDad" for a day.

[AaronFreitas]

Yeah... they get an extra week off of school before they go back... that may be the time to take them!

[KWP]

and when we look upon our lives and observe what we like about it and what we may not like about it we have the chance to make the change for ourselves - for if we don't do it for ourselves - who will? one life, one chance to be the difference we wish to see.

My father once told me that we take the good things about our parents and use them for when we are ourselves parents - the rest - the stuff we don't like - we throw away - neither of my parent came from over loving families and therefore I myself never recieved hugs and kisses you usually get from your parents - I don't blame them for that - no way - I can observe the way they grew up and turned out the way in which they did - but instead I give my two boys all the hugs, all the kisses to show them that it's ok to love hard and strong so they then can improve on what I have given to them as a parent :)

this is a very emotive write and I can see many layers of pain - the trick is now to accept the pain and claim your own life and live it in a way that people you come into contact with will recieve all that you missed out on - then my dear freind, the love will start to flow back your way X X

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you for your amazing review KWP :) What you said makes perfect sense. I am much more loving to my kids than my mom and step dad were to me. Rather than them believing they aren't loved I want to make sure they know they are. I appreciate your words my friend :) Thank you

[KWP]

funny how we ourselves get a chance to learn and have the opportunity to pass it on :) Yo have kids - that's funny too - i did not ever imagine you with kids ;) too young I thought X

[AaronFreitas]

haha... well KWP I am going to take that as a compliment lol.... I have 4 daughters :)

[KWP]

OmgAwd 4 daughters - man you must be surrounded by love and yes by all means it's a compliment!!! How old is the eldest? I am opposite to you - I have two sons X

[AaronFreitas]

Oldest is 10 youngest is 3 :)

[dan]

Very powerful, Aaron. It must have made for a very mixed up emotional test going through the process of growing up. It must have seemed very lonely at times. But there's a lot to be said in your favor for surviving this psychological trauma to become the good man that you are. You made it, Aaron...and you're stronger for having done so! take care...dan

[AaronFreitas]

It was definitely a unique experience growing up. Some of those feelings of being torn between my family came directly from living with my mom then moving out at 16 to go live with my dad. I remember my mom didn't really talk to me til I moved away to college and just the pain and emotional roller coaster those two years really took a lot of out me. I am stronger and I try to share those feelings. It's easy to find those feelings and share... the hope is that people that need to read it find it... people in need of relating to someone thats lived through some rough times. Appreciate your review buddy :)

[DeadSoulx_x]

Very nicely written. You can feel the emotion of the words. I love conflict between anger and saddened. I can relate very much so. I enjoyed it a lot

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you DeadSoul :) I read through this one and found it ironic how back in 2008 and now 2015 I've felt a lot of the same feelings. To read my own words and see how I expressed me in two different phases of life was kind of neat. I am glad you enjoyed it my friend :)

[DeadSoulx_x]

I understand what you mean