my true love

i wish i could let him no how i feel, but im scared if i do he will hurt me again,  im tired of running but i dont wanna b let down again, my true love...
y cant i b who i am, and just let all my emotions out and just tell him what he wants 2 hear...
idk...
y cant i let go of all the fear i have with letting ppl get close 2 me...
i just want 2 let him no what im feeling and not hav 2 lie about it just 2 make him feel good and 2 hid the fact that im really trying not 2 let go of my controle of myself...
y do i do this...
can u answer my question...
i no i cant, but i no some one who can...
i dont no him, or mayb i do, hes my true love, he'll be able  2 set me free from all the bagage  i have and  love him the way i want 2 do now...
but i need time, time 2 get over my fears and just move on with life...
i love him, i love u, i love u...
y is it that those three little words scare the hell out of me, idk, i need him so much that it makes me wanna cry somethines...
an u all no i hate 2 show emotion, it makes me feel week...
i hate the feeling of being so vonerable that i would rather die alone then put myself out there...
but im trying, so hard...
i just need time 2 get over wat ever this thing is thats holding me back...
it will happen i just need time, thats all, i need time...
but i will let u on a little secret now...
I L.O.V.E. U!