The Stages of Grief

The Stages of Grief

A Poem by Cheyanna
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a year after my mother passed from cancer

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It has been a year since you left me
I learned about the stages of grief
One by one in psychology 

Stage one: Denial
I can't believe that you're gone
You always joked that we wouldn't know what to do without you
And you were right 
Every day that I come home 
I sit and wait for you to come out of your room
To give me that big hug
And tell me "I missed you!"

Stage two: Anger
Why did the one person that had to leave be you?
I am jealous
I won't ever get the experience to have you see me at my wedding
Or for you to hold my kids in your arms
I am angry
That you didn't live the life you deserved
That I couldn't save you

Stage three: Bargaining
I would give up anything to have you back here
I would trade my schooling
I would raise all the money in the world
Maybe I could have stopped this
If I just tried harder
And if I could have afforded better doctors
I wish it were me instead of you

Stage four: Depression 
I wake up numb
Some days I don't get out of bed
I lay for hours
Drowning in my own tears
My heart breaks again and again
My empty thoughts are no longer empty
Because they're of you 

Stage five: Acceptance
I've made it a year without you
There are good days
Where I'll see a sign of you
To remind me that it's going to be okay
I'm going to do so much in your memory
I'm going to make you prouder
Than you ever have before

I don't believe in the stages
Because I have felt all of them at once
There is no endpoint of this grief
All of these emotions
Play on repeat
Bouncing back to back 

Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, Acceptance
Acceptance, Anger, Bargaining, Denial, Depression
Anger, Denial, Depression, Acceptance, Bargaining

denialangerbargainingdepressionacceptance

grief 

© 2018 Cheyanna


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I could feel this pain in my heart and it had brought me to tears. I am truly sorry for your lost.

Posted 6 Years Ago



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Added on October 6, 2018
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Cheyanna
Cheyanna

grass valley, CA



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