time

i try to forget, but time slips and through my hands i fear i have lost.

and when i look into your eyes i see you too are gone. so i just shame myself for what we lose.

and a time like this calls for a feast, but my heart is weak and i fight in my dreams.

i hate loving something i cannot find words for.

but every time i sleep i fret the winter will die.

the sun will set.

the tides we toll are strong.

but i want to just say, i wish i was never born so i could die.

and death is sweet, like you. 

but i hate the words i never said, like things i never mention.

suddenly i am fading back to gray, and time heals all wounds but the words just slip away.

and all the things i never got to say just haunt me and i hate the way you take the stage, away from me. i will never get that back and what comes next is worse. 

so leave me here, with my peace. and i will just say, knowing you was real neat. 

but i hate this, and i can't relate. 

bye love, i will somehow forget you in a summers day of light leaked.

but nothing makes me happy anymore and i think you should know. 

just how important you were. 

but i am blind and you are weak.

Reviews

[albee]

"i hate loving something i cannot find words for...
i try to forget, but time slips ... i fear i have lost..."

Paradoxes of living love and its memories always slipping through our fingers, vision, and skin.
love beyond words is confusion ...trying to forget yet fearing the loss of the sensations that words can not understand...words are attachments...attachments are the cause suffering.

[John the Baptist]

Time, impermanence and love don't make for a happy mix, and this is not a happy poem. The speaker is looking back on a lost love and mourning it, for it will not come again. Not to be insensitive, but what's done is done. Live in and for the present.

[Chris Shaw]

When you are grieving time stands still. The sadness and feelings of loss of a relationship can become all encompassing. Guilt can play its part too. I am reminded of the saying, it's better to have !oved and lost than never loved at all. Time does soften grief eventually. We have to learn to make our own hapoiness.

A sad read.

Chris

[JE Falcon]

The age-old sorrows of lost love and regrets are worded differently, and well said. You have two thumbs up from me!

[Relic]

This is a totally relatable poem for many, I believe. The words we din't say, the running down of time...I think those who read this will shake their head in agreement.

Nicely expressed, Cheyenne.

[Betty Hermelee]

A grieving poem after a lost love; very dark and boding; There seems to be nothing left for you, except to leave this earth. You made mistakes, and now you seem to be mourning those; nothing makes you happy anymore, which is so sad. It's difficult to move on when you lose a loved one. I believe it's a good thing to talk to that person aloud, to free your pain.
well done.
Best, B.

[S.zaynab.kamoonpury]

A nice emotive poem, mixed emotions and well expressed. Thumbs up.!

Plz do read and comment my newest poem too titled, 'The better gems '

[Miss Sharon]

(i hate the words i never said) You and the entire world my friend. Woulda, coulda, shoulda. Great write. ~Sharon