Questions

Stuff that's been running through my head the last few days. Thoughts in disarray.........

What is it that I search for

I used to think that all I wanted was a soulmate

Someone to hold my hand and show me love

As I grow older I realize

That I do not know what i want

Happiness

That is what I want

But how to obtain happiness?

Can I buy a slice of it ?

My compulsive eating days are over.....

This brings new dilemas

Why was I making myself over eat?

Why did I stop?

What do i need to do to continue on this path

What path am I on?

Too many questions

None answered

Should I feign happiness for the sake of being liked?

If I do, and I am liked...will that make me happier?

Why are my eyes so puffy

(crying)

Why did I cry?

(depressed)

Why am I depressed?

(alone)

Why do I feel alone?

(he's not here)

Why is he not here?

(not my boyfriend)

Why does that hurt......?

Does it do any good to get all of this out of me?

Will i feel better after typing this?

( I sure hope so)

When will I see him again?

( not soon enough)

He is just a small distraction from the pain

Why do I still have pain?

Shouldn't therapy have helped with this?

Why am I still wishing for death?

( you don't wish for it as often)

I feel lost

I'm wondering where to go from here

Where will i go?

What will I do?

Will I live another year or will my life come to some abrupt end?

When I die, will I wish I had another day?

Will I look up at the sky and feel thankful?

( not if it plays out like in your dreams)

Sometimes when I dream, I see myself in this darkness

I speak into the darkness, and it talks back

He gives me a choice.............

And I always choose to live