Journal Nov.28, 2008A Story by ClaytonRecord of my thoughts about book I am writing-- Journal Nov.28, 2008 I am not enthused with this book—I am driving myself to put word behind word and go on with it, ut I have little enthusiasm for the process—this is not good. Should make the process primary, and love the process and the characters. I am meditating on that photo of SP—the smiling one—it is 1 am, Nov.28, 2008—I have pennies for a Coke this morning, if Sidamo is open—was thinking about that critique I wrote—there r types of literature which I just do not like, and that guy writes one of them. Not interested in gloomy, “nitty-gritty” tales of losers—if browsed in a bookstore, I would not buy this. I have enough of the “nitty-gritty” in my own life, but life is populated by devotees and right thinking, sp there are no losers here—once one comes to Krsna, one will attain Him sooner or later, so there is optimism and right thinking. W/ On to chapter four---Spence is away at war, bt writes; Cole is a frequent visitor, and Corel lives next door. How to deal with? She is confused—but life goes on. Then Chapter 5:the courts reject her arguments—appeal; meanwhile, abner Hope has bought his way out of prison; large fine, no prison time; Vicky tries her metaphysics in re Corel’s black magic; magick, he explains, and metaphysics are the same thing, only magic is more durable; that is why she is fascinated by magick, being a metaphysician. Corel does a ceremony for her father, to bring him home quickly, or so he says; anyhow, some goetic spirits are involved; Chapter 6, what I’ve been waiting for—Bhaktkivinode Thakur arrives in “A Contemporary Translation of the Lotus Sutra”, by Reeves. This is one of the most, probably THE most important Mahayana sutra there is—it has been 25 years or so since I looked at it. I am adding the dimension of metapjhysics to Vicky—another thing to be aware of. Now 5:30a.Now 6:13a—plainly cannot get back to sleep. Before last chapter there should be a twist—so far haven’t conceived of what—and conceive 12 chapters to this, so 11th will be the twist, and 12th—maybe she blooms as a magickian—if she gets Cole, that would be no surprise to anyone---away with the conventional! She finds a soulmate in Corel! I think that is the idea- Maybe she doesn’t want any of them! I will have to ask her what she wants—she doesn’t know—she is simply led by a superior male-that, perhaps, is the moral of the last chapter—I say right now she doesn’t marry, neither does he, and they enjoy magicking together. As the Sun sets on Ru Abrao The End So skip the DVD player and get the Sutra.So school is $55 and sutra is $20=$75, and all bills in addition, meaning PGE and ATT. I wanted the sutra last, think that would be the most valuable thing to me. DVDs work in computer so what is the need? Today went through the first example case, a guy with fear of water.There are about 4 more. I like upbeat stuff, people who maybe get in trouble, but overcome, and are making progress on the Path, regardless of obstacles and sometimes because of obstacles, and who value themselves and what they are doing regardless of the situation in which they may have placed themselves. Such people are keen on anything which will further their self-expression or self-direction, and discount the negative which is always coming at us. I am not interested in losers, particularly not as main players, or as friends in my personal life---they will drag you down to their own sorry level and you will not be able to get up again. Association is very important—associate with those who ae going godward, and YOU are going godward also; associate with those who have madetheir lives a hell—and so will you. Purport is to associate with devotees, who have given their lives to the Supreme—their association is rarely gotten. Everybody has the Supreme Personality of Godhead within him, therefore everybody is all fixed up and doesn’t need anything from anyhody else. These were my objectives in that piece: 1) to get something going on the first page 2) to introduce most of the main players with dialog rather than description.3) to set things up for further activities. I am an upbeat guy and a positive thinker, and my characters are like that, too. This is designed as a journey from other-determinism to self-determinism for practically everyone, especially Victoria and me—its my journey, too, and of course, she is just me as a young 19th century woman, which is a bit of a stretch for an old, 21st century man, but everything is possible in fiction. I am writing chapter 12, the end, so I know where I am going with this. I would like to hear if I have achieved my objectives, rather than what someone else thinks I should be doing. If I started listening to critics and changing everything, I would be completely lost.
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Added on November 29, 2008 AuthorClaytonOakland, CAAboutWriter of Hare Krishna philosophy, aspires to write transnendental literature. Two self-published books, Meds and Reds, and Crossing the Abyss Made Easy, somehow got the fiction bug--got an idea for .. more..Writing
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