Hidden with a smile

 

I woke up rubbing my eyes

Removing my heart from my sleeve

Hiding it beneath my skin

Beneath my bones

 

The mascara still stained my cheeks

Marking the path of my tears

I wipe it away

Refusing to let it define me today

Today I’m too strong

 

Maybe just maybe

 if you keep telling yourself

Youre enough, that youre okay

Maybe just maybe

if it is spoken aloud

 into the atmosphere

It will be true  

 

And I go through the motions

and they don’t notice

a smile can distract , it is forgiving

 it distracts from the fact

 your eyes flow with sorrow  

smile because your eyes

they cannot keep a secret

 

I open my door

Glancing at my pillow

The one that has harvest my tears

but I promised myself

Tonight would be different

Tonight I would not cry

Tonight I would not give him the power

 

But still I wept

because I longed for confirmation

that I wasn’t as worthless

as I felt when I was with him