The Feeling

The feeling

You know the feeling

The feeling of your stomach turning inside out

The feeling that you can’t get a full breath

Where it feels like you could either throw up or burst into tears

But you have no clue which one it will be

The feeling, when you look at him in the eyes and realize…he doesn’t love you anymore

 

No he didn’t say those words

he probably doesn’t even realize it yet

but he didn’t have to say anything

For you to hear it loud in clear

 

He screams it in

the way that his eyes don’t light up anymore when he sees you

the way that meaningful conversations have turned to no conversation at all

the way that I love you sounds like a broken record rather than a representation of emotion

the way that his smile is no longer sparked by you

 

He shouts it

When his eyes are rolling at you instead of adoring you

When his lips are shouting at you instead of kissing you

When his hands are slamming doors instead of holding yours.

 

He doesn’t find you unique, smart, and funny anymore

You’re “clingy”, “annoying”, and “a child”

He doesn’t tell you you’re beautiful

“because you should know already”

 

He knows how to love your body and make it his

But he does not know how to cherish your soul.

He can be inside of you

But he ironically can’t look past anything skin deep.

 

You see that he doesn’t love you

You see that you’ll never make him happy enough

And you have to sit there and wait for him to realize it

Because leaving him would be leaving a part of yourself

 

So you wait…

Wait until He sees how broken you are

Wait until He realizes he doesn’t love you

Wait until you hear it leave someone else’s lips “You’re not good enough”

 

 

 

 

Reviews

[Kesch (Finding Julia)]

such an emotional, heart tugging read here. Also nicely expressed.

[sincerely]

Thank you so much!