when i was...

yesterday's too far from today

when I was a child,
I used to love rainbow,
I used to hug  teddies
and  pillow
I used to draw fairies
and happy faces
I used to love love
and hope above
I used to play dolls
and act like a princess
I used to dress up
to feel beautiful
like the girls with my age

yet today,
I love black,
i only hug pillows
I draw hallow,
I love hate
I like vodoo dolls
and those lovely bloody skulls,
I act like nil
and dress up weird from the girls with my age,

It's just, I came to realized today
that I've been leading to some way,
that nobody understands..
how I keep alone, holding my own hands,

it's just when I was a child I cried over stupid toys,
today, I cut up as a choice
to release the thing I've been owning
since the day of my beckoning...

Author's Note

everything