Words That You Never Meant

Words That You Never Meant

A Poem by Eyes_wide_open
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Things don't always go as planned. People don't always mean what they say. I thought he would stay clean this time, but once again I was wrong.

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You did it again.
You broke my heart.
You lied to my face, you tore me apart.
I left again, and I don't know when I'll be back.
You've hurt me so many times, and I can't remain a part of that.

I close my eyes, as I lay by myself.
I see your face in my mind, and I wish you'd go get help.
When I think too much, I can feel it inside.
My stomach drops and my heartbeat seems to decline.

People always ask why I look so upset, and I have to turn my head to wipe the tears forming all away.
It might seem it for the most part, but really, I'm not okay.
You sit in my mind the whole entire day.

"Sorry" is a word, and "I promise" has been a lie.
So what am I supposed to do when those are the things that you tell me all of the time?
There are only weeks left until our baby girl is here in our arms; yours and mine.

Don't you love me? And don't you love her?
Why can't you show me that?
Why does my begging and pleading go so unheard?

I need you to hold me and I need you right here. I need you to kiss me and show me that you'll always be near.
But it hasn't been like that in a long time, and everyday I live in fear.

What if your continuous slip ups take you away from us?
What if you stop and I never learn how to re-trust?
How am I going to explain this to the piece of you and me, when she wants to see her daddy and that's not someone you're able to be?

"We're supposed to be together", that's what you say to me.
But all you're doing is hurting the ones that you love, and yourself.
It's like the addiction takes away your ability to see.

Please come back soon, and for once be here to stay.
With all of this damage done, I don't know what is going to make it all okay.
All I know is that i'm in love with you, and that it's been so hard for me to walk away.


© 2017 Eyes_wide_open


Author's Note

Eyes_wide_open
Excuse the sadness in the writing I post. I'm sure happy works will come, but lately things have been a little rough.

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"Sorry" is a word, and "I promise" has been a lie."
This is certainly a melancholic piece but you've laid out all the emotions only too well! Writing as a coping mechanism can be the best at times. I liked reading this. Nicely penned :)

Posted 7 Years Ago


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Added on February 9, 2017
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Tags: Love, addiction, sad, promise, forgive, baby, future, child, drugs

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I am 21 years old and pregnant with a baby girl. Recently, her father and I have not been doing the greatest. Things like that, they make you feel. These last few years have been a roller coas.. more..

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