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You need to know

A Poem by Julie Deshtor

When you hit a brick wall, where do you go from there?...



You need to know that my smile ain’t real;
This merriment is worth its weight in blood.
You need to know that I don’t belong here,
That I would rather fade into the dark.

You need to know that my soul is tattered,
My hands are torn; there’s not much left to do,
That nothing that I had achieved had mattered,
That I can’t help myself and can’t save you.

I’m shadows, I’m smoke " I’m evanescent.
I am the echo of the setting sun.
I can’t redeem the past. Can’t fix the present.
And I have lost my faith in everyone.

I burned so brightly that I have burned out.
The sun is setting, now it won’t be long
Before I follow it into the ground.
Just please remember me when I am gone.

And don’t you dare pity me. You know
Your pity is one thing I won’t forgive.
Unclench your hand and simply let me go;
I’ve lived the only way that I could live.


copyright @ Julie Deshtor 2013

© 2013 Julie Deshtor

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Quite differen', but interestin' write. few lines're totally strong n words as well are powerful, your writin' way's don't you think unique, i think...well, i wanna read more your work if i get my time.
well written

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Added on March 29, 2013
Last Updated on March 29, 2013
Tags: depression, impotence, hurt, disappointment, end of the road, suicide, life


Julie Deshtor
Julie Deshtor

Salt Lake City, UT

Julie Deshtor grew up in the Soviet Union during the turbulent 90s, and moved to the United States shortly after the Soviet Empire collapsed in 1991. A bilingual author, Julie writes both fiction and.. more..

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