When life is a b***h

When life is a b***h

A Poem by Julie Deshtor

What do you do?


When I find myself backed up against a brick wall,
when I’m too proud to fight and too tired to crawl,
when my lovers have gambled my secrets away,
and I can’t find a pen, and there’s nothing to say,
when the pavement beneath my feet crumbles to dust,
when there are friends around whom I do not trust,
when I run out of bullets and run out of time,
when my total achievements amount to crime,
and the house in which I had lived has burned down,
and I’m searching for my brothers’ bones in the ground,
and emergency dispatch won’t answer my call,
and I see my name splattered in blood on that wall,
when I’m high on the anger and giddy with pain -
how do I hit ‘reset’ �" and start over again?


Copyright @ Julie Deshtor 2012

© 2013 Julie Deshtor

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Very powerful - I find the sudden break and "reset" imagery rather weak compared to how emotive some of the imagery is, however.

I love that it is structured as one long question.

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Added on March 29, 2013
Last Updated on March 29, 2013
Tags: friends, betrayal, hurt, friendship, love, lover, lovers


Julie Deshtor
Julie Deshtor

Salt Lake City, UT

Julie Deshtor grew up in the Soviet Union during the turbulent 90s, and moved to the United States shortly after the Soviet Empire collapsed in 1991. A bilingual author, Julie writes both fiction and.. more..

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