I Miss You

The title speaks for itself...

I miss you...

 

I search for you

I look for you behind every cloud

Every tree

Every gleam I see in the distance

Behind every ray of sunshine

At the end of every rainbow

And cannot find you

 

I am surrounded by those I love

Friends... Family

Indescribable beauty

Breathtaking sights and sounds

History

Mystery

Quaintness... Quirkiness

amid a Cockney world

All wonderful and yet...

I miss you...

 

I think back on where we were

where we are

And where we might be

What we were

What we are

What we might become

 

There is so much I do not know

I do know I have not met anyone like you before

One who has engaged me on so many levels

A scintillating meeting of the minds

Our spirits touch like two twins separated at birth

Apart all their life... Yet knowing... Sensing...

The presence of the other

Then...in one random moment...

one stroke of chance...

touching

and in that touch...

revelation

 

I know you...

beyond the icon that others see

I see the tenderness you hide...

you wish to share but fear you can't

the little girl you even hide from me at times

thinking I might be like all the resth

here to take for myself

and leave you

diminiished...

 

I fear i may have blundered...

revealed my physical longings...

tried to engage you in the only wonderful way I know how...

tried to touch you the

only way I feel I can

from a distance

thinking that is one thing

you wanted to share

I hope it is...

but that is not all I crave...

the only delicious parts I want...

physical longing is but one facet

of this gem I see in you...

 

I know there are times

you wonder how you can be

any good to any one

but you are cherished in my heart

I have been more than touched

I have been illuminated...

I have been given the gift of sight

and beauty of the colors of your soul

leave me short of breath...

that my life was soundless

and the first sounds I hear

are Beethoven's Fifth Symphony

performed to the beat of your heart...

my physical yearnings are but a shadow in the glow you bring

to my heart and soul

It is so good to be your friend

It is terrifying to be in such a place

Where feelings like this

swirl and twirl around...

make us feel unsure and new

timid and daring in the same moment...

afraid to take a chance...

yet afraid not to...lest

we never feel this again...

afraid to trust

but in some strange way...

we do...

knowing we can

 

I tremble as I try to write my feelings on this page

As if a thousand volts

of your electricity

have set me on fire...

You make me feel everything

I have hoped I might

But doubted I would

in this life...

That amazes me...

YOU amaze me

And in the middle of

all the wonderful things

that surround me here

I miss you...