UNREQUITED LOVE

 

Yes, I dream of you but you will never know I do
Yes, I long for you; but that doesn't make this love true 
My love's precipice lies right before our eyes
You never see my Heaven reaching out for your sunrise 

What can I say to you my beloved?  Would you even care?
The stars in the Heavens never notice man's venerated stare 
Anonymously I'm reverent to your hopes, your dreams, and fears 
Yet, I'm resolute to be in your shadow; cloaked but always near 

This hidden love is the crux, the seed, and root that lets us be
It pains, it drains, it strains my soul; and still you never see 
I curse the day I saw you!  I wish extirpation from this fate! 
I crave the Lord's expunction if only for my souls sake 

Sometimes I dream of telling you "I love you more then words"
Yet, I fear your abject reprobation or the condemnation of being absurd 
I decided to hide this passion; my zeal, my fervor, and my pain
This veil keeps you near me and thus it keeps me sane 

I won't care that I dream of you and you don't know I do
I won't care that I long for you; It won't make our love be true 
The scales of my soul keep tipping to tell you exactly how I feel 
However the truth may risk too much you see... 
I'll continue to let my illusion keep us real. 

© 2012 Eddie Phillips

Author's Note

I wrote this poem years ago before I told my wife I loved her. We grew up together and I didn't know how to resolve the issues of friendship and love. I hid my love for her in my heart and waited to tell her. I know this happens a lot. This poem expresses that pain of loving someone and not having it returned because they don't know how you feel.

Reviews

[Rita L. Sev]

A poem from experience - those are the best, though often draining to write. But, as your poem would attest - some words need to be said. Well penned, Eddie.

[Saddam]

Don't keep your words in your heart. Tell the truth which you love most...
Well...very impressive poem.

[Constance Payne]

Very Nice.
I have been on both sides of the fence.
Loving and not telling; being loved and not being told until it was "too late".
Neither situation is good but the reasons behind it are the pain.

Beautiful Words.

[Melissa Sofia]

Lovely poem, it explains so well how it feels to have a hidden love, especially for long it can end up feeling real which in the end makes it all the more worse. "I decided to hide my passion, my zeal, my fervor my pain" beautiful wording

[Derek Nall]

So I let my illusion keep us real...beautiful ending.

[Eddie Phillips]

I have always liked the ending of this poem also. I think it ends the story well. It was personal and yet distant. Thanks for reading.

[A. H. Pinley]

Great choice of words.

[Eddie Phillips]

Thank you for reading. My word choice is always difficult because I write what I feel and think. Sometimes my vocabulary can get a little "bohemian" :) I however never use a word with out having a good reason.