your ashes still on my heart

your ashes still on my heart

A Poem by jacob erin-cilberto

your ashes still on my heart


secular beings
monks to the premise
solitude is serenity to some

the lucky ones
married to a theory of abstinence

i became your Lent
but i thought that was only temporary
40 days, 40 nights

now i am your Passover
you are not my serenity
solitude is feeling so alone
in a mass of people,

the good book lies open
pages fluctuating in a dark breeze
the candles nearly burnt out

and i am out of prayers
for your return,

i am Lent
365 days a year,
trying to remember if there ever was 
an Easter Sunday.


erin-cilberto
3/8/18

© 2018 jacob erin-cilberto


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The title just stole my heart...
And the poem as usual one of its kind...
Wondering if there was celebration ever..with so much of sadness, one often forgets how it was to be joyous


Posted 1 Year Ago


jacob erin-cilberto

1 Year Ago

yes, unfortunately we do forget, don't we?

thank you, Galadriel.
j.
Ardra

1 Year Ago

Yes ... I feel it's a blessing we can forget at some point of time... otherwise life can never move .. read more
Solitude is nice and needed but we are social beings by nature, so 365 days a year of isolation and not knowing is she's going to reciprocate is just to dang long and improper!

The angst and yearning are palpable Jacob, superb pen my friend!

Posted 1 Year Ago


jacob erin-cilberto

1 Year Ago

thank you for your words, Tom.
j.
What imagery! Such haunting loneliness in it. It's beautiful!

Posted 1 Year Ago


jacob erin-cilberto

1 Year Ago

thank you for your words, Charlotte.
j.
The holy imagery in this really gives the poem a profound and even haunting effect. “The lucky ones - married to a theory of abstinence.” My favourite takeaway from this... I’ve read around ten poems you’ve written now and this is my favourite! Thanks for sharing

Posted 1 Year Ago


jacob erin-cilberto

1 Year Ago

thank you for your kind words, Dotty.
j.
Not having been around many practicing Catholics lately, I forget all the things this time of year represents for some. I love the way you weave these religious aspects into a metaphor about giving something up for 40 days or for a lifetime! *sigh!* Fondly, Margie

Posted 1 Year Ago


jacob erin-cilberto

1 Year Ago

thank you for your kind words, Margie.
j.
Feeling alone is like a weight on the heart, pulling down with every breath. I've been there. My favorite line: the lucky ones married to a theory of abstinence.

If only there were a safe over the counter drug to change the mindset that abolishes loneliness. I think I'd buy it.

Posted 1 Year Ago


jacob erin-cilberto

1 Year Ago

yes, if only...thanks Tim...
j.
To run a good race and to keep to the narrow path is not for the faint hearted - the walk can be lonesome and very trying but the end results are promising and full of beauty and endless love serene- timing is always perfect- never late ALWAYS on time- patience- wonderful words- really felt each word🌹

Posted 1 Year Ago


jacob erin-cilberto

1 Year Ago

thank you for your kind words, Kelly.
j.
‘Thoughts In Time’🌹

1 Year Ago

Only a pleasure🌹
Stunning use of holy imagery – a profound word painting of loss and loneliness.

Posted 1 Year Ago


jacob erin-cilberto

1 Year Ago

thank you, MomZ...
j.
MomzillaNC

1 Year Ago

😎 You’re welcome
Damn! Such profound sadness in this write, Jacob.

Love the religious references throughout! Us humans are funny beings. At times we aspire to solitude and even revel in it, and at others we are overcome by a cloak of gregariousness and long for love and intimacy. But there is nothing worse than eternal solitude. It's such a lonely, colourless existence. And to be "passed over" and left in this oblivion is one of life's great tragedies.

As always, wonderful references and metaphors, especially relevant for the coming holidays. I hope your Easter is filled with serenity and not solitude. Fine work, Jacob.

Posted 1 Year Ago


jacob erin-cilberto

1 Year Ago

thank you for your kind words, Doodley.
j.
Your words ring so true Mr. Jacob. Solemnity seems eternal. I have a hard time recalling the festivity, the sunshine. Appreciated a lot.

Posted 1 Year Ago


jacob erin-cilberto

1 Year Ago

thank you for your kind words, DIVYA..
j.

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jacob erin-cilberto

Carbondale, IL



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Originally from Bronx, NY, I live in Carbondale, Illinois...teach English at two community colleges and have been writing and publishing poetry since 1970. Friending works two ways. If we have had .. more..

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