Self-Inflicted Pain

I wrote this a while back when I was thinking about my ex...

Slipping
Thinking
Of you and us together
How could I break a feather
We were so tight
Together everyday
Skip school play with me all day
Sneak in at night
You told me I better stay

I yearn for you
No one else above
You and all our memories
You were my first love please believe
I would never decieve
Never leave you again
Out in the rain and the wind

Now my whole life is a storm
You were my norm
My entirety
How could you fire me?
The stupid question I should let free
Make the past a memory
But I can't remember
Or see a time happy without thee

I remember when I used to wake up
Next to you without your fake make up
Looking at my princess
How you rubbed my chest
Calmed the heart inside
I knew I was lucky
But then I lied
Told myself pride was more important

Now I'm bent
Broken begging to my baby
Hold me one more time
Tell me I can fix it if I give up my life of crime
The criminal inside I told get out
So I could never cross the line again
Now I see the line I can't pretend
I s**t on my only friend
And I will be alone til I can mend
The suffering that suspended
Our love and our kindred spirits
Until a time when my love
Is real enough for you to hear it

Author's Note

Hope you can't relate...

Reviews

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

This is heartbreakingly sad.
Im sorry you went through this, but you have to go through the ones that don't work out, to find the right girl.
Hope the pain is healing now.
Time heals all wounds, the memories will still be there, but they hurt less in time.
Falling in love with someone new, will make your heart heal at least 90 percent.
Great write :)

[Not here]

that was really...deep. i know how you feel and im sorry that was how you felt at one point