Internal monologue

So many wonderful things inside me that can't come out,

Because I keep numbing myself.

So much pain in and outside of me,

Nothing I can do about it. Or is it?

Thank God we are all so different,

How dreadful would everything be if it was just me.

Why do I keep dragging myself down?

Why do I keep doubting what I already know for sure?

Why do I keep going back to where I know I won't find anything at all?

I know what I want,

I know how to get it,

Yet I don't go for it.

Why are we so selfdestructive?

I feel like I'm swiming against the current,

Going forward is so hard,

And if I stop for a second,

The river drags me a mile back.

Is it just me or is there something in the air?

Why is it so hard to live life?

And yet, it is so rewarding.

"If it was easy, everybody would do it."

Well, I disagree, because it actually IS easy.

We are the ones that complicate it.

Life is not so difficult. Humans are.

You want something? Go for it.

Pay the price and get it.

Be sure to pick the right goal, though.

Dark things await to those that don't search in the debts of their own heart before going on an adventure.

Author's Note

Just a dialogue with myself

Reviews

[Moonie]

All of these are thoughts that we have all had at some point of our life. Some might say that we should bottle these thoughts up and not think of them too much, but I've noticed that talking about them makes living through them much easier. I bet writing this poem was helpful. That's the spirit of the artist. While others may shy away from talking about these thoughts, we turn them into art.

[Esteban Morfín]

Thank you very much for your comment, Moonie. I agree with you. The most valuable art is always the most personal.

[Austin Wade Runyon]

All we can do is the best we can. Whatever is in our power without detriment to ourselves. At a personal level, if you've been a certain way for so long, years even, it's gonna take a long time to reverse. Some of the best and hardest to hear advice I've ever been given but this may just be me projecting. Good train of thought piece here. You will leave the world a better place than it would've been without you. That is the best thing anyone can do.

[Dave Brown]

You'll have to learn to take it easy on yourself