What I Get in the End? Life Dead Feeling

What I Get in the End? Life Dead Feeling

Sitting aside with the feelings that are dead
I want to scream, but is it with joy or pain?
This resisting feeling always strikes, 
That what it should be and How?

How it would be when things may turn?
How these changes led towards an edge?
Would it be in my favor or else?
Or would it come with deepest cloud?

At my end, 
I just want to skip all such question marks??
So, I get to an end without hurting anyone
For me it is tough to say NO to anyone
But I have to fight this negativity with positive turn

This negativity is from demon side 
He knows exactly where to hit
He pushed me down and sets me alone
And left me with the deepest scream

But, Along with demon there is an angel
Who always fights against this demon
Who ensure me always that God is great and
I know, HE is more powerful and always be here

So,
I have to make my way for our happiness
With this demon angel fight I have to play
I will be down, I will be hurt and 
May be I left with my deep screaming

But a strong voice that came from above
I bet, these all flew away by the end
A little more fight just here left and
Your tears will be your smiles I Bet!!

Ending my feeling with the words again
This terrible phase pinching me a lot and
I am here for shedding tears
Might be of sadness, happiness or my own fear? 

Should I get the way I need?
Would it be in my favor?
What I get in the end? 
Could anyone tell me please.....?

~AK~ 

© Eve Ola 

Reviews

[TL Boehm]

Life is a fight - but keep fighting. This is a solid poem. truthful and introspective. We all have demons. We all have angels.

[Ruth]

It is hard to live for others and not the self...shows a compassionate heart throughout this...I guess we are all in charge of our own destiny, so to speak...the wheel of fortune rests within our choices...beautiful poem x

[Eve Ola]

yeah right. Thanks Dear :)

[Coyote Poetry]

"This negativity is from demon side
Who exactly knows where to hit
He pushed me down and sets me alone
And left me with the deepest scream"
I'm old. I fought the negative side daily. We do need support and a friendly face and voice. I felt the sadness and desperation in the poetry. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Eve Ola]

you are right Coyote we do need support and friendly support. Thanks a lot :)

[Coyote Poetry]

You are welcome. Life isn't easy for anyone.

[Rene Salinas]

Ok Eva if I understood correcly from your request you want specific pinpointing not so much my silly rambling so here is my attempt at that:
Line 4- That what it should be and How? Is it supposed to be That's and omit capitalisation
Line 6 - How these changes led toward an edge? Did you mean To instead of towards?
Line 12 - Should it be For me, it is?
Line 25 - Is it I will be down I will be hurt and or did you mean I will be done, I will be hurt?
Line 28- I bet, these all flew away by the end did you mean I bet, these all flew away from the end

Ok I got that frivolous part out of the way I hope it helps.

There are ways of saying exactly what you want just in a different way but that would take a long time to show in this space and eventually you will find your own way.

I thankyou for sharing and inviting me to review your work

[Eve Ola]

Thanks Rene I do appreciate your words, time and yeah suggestions. that means a lot :)

[Mayank]

this is like an angry song... fighting with inner demons was never so easy and will never be!

[Eve Ola]

yeah true .. Thanks for the read Mayank

[Matching Socks]

Eva, you're so lovely. Keep your strength, treat others with respect but also expect the same back.

[Eve Ola]

Thanks Ana for your kind words :)