I'm Going to Scream

I'm Going to Scream

A Poem by Evyn Rubin
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Report on my coping skills, the day after the Kavanagh disaster.

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I'm going to scream. I'm going to scream.

I'm not going to get a corkscrew and stick it slowly through my eye.

I'm just going to scream.  I'm going to scream.

I'm not going to jump out a window.

I'm not going to fall off a bridge.

I'm just going to scream.

I'm not going to hit myself in the head.

I'm not going to have a relapse of p.t.s.d.

I'm not going to self-medicate.

I'm going to scream.

I'm not going to walk into traffic.

I'm not going to make a self-destructive mistake.

I'm going to scream. That is all I am going to do.


And in fact, I may not scream.

I may just announce

my intention to scream

my feelings of wanting to scream

and that may be sufficient.

 

It may be sufficient just to say, I'm going to scream,

I'm going to scream. How I fix myself these days

when overwhelmed by disconcerting feelings

just to recognize what I feel and simply say

I'm going to scream.

I find it helpful to myself

to announce my feelings thusly.

© 2018 Evyn Rubin


Author's Note

Evyn Rubin
Is this slightly funny?

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No... but so truth-full the pain it speaks of registers readily.

Posted 5 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

can i scream now? I love this, YES! I found it humorous...
nicely done and written

Posted 5 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.


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Added on October 7, 2018
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Tags: coping, p.t.s.d., psychology, self-care, humour