Insomnia

Lying awake

Unable to sleep

Trying to resurface us

From a chasm so deep

Fighting paranoia and fear

Trying to keep my mind clear

Free myself from all this doubt

Repair this before my light burns out

Petrified by the contingency of your return

To someone that continues to hurt and burn

Destroying your happiness left and right

Taking from your eyes all that is bright

One in the same am I

Reason why I feel the end is nigh

How much he hurt you

Is incomparable to the way I do

Mutilating what once was true and pure

For the pain I cause I fear there is no cure

Losing the best part of me

Happening I never did see

Now I sit in this darkness

Knowing that I am far from harmless

Annihilate, maul, and torment

Only part of what I do to make you resent

If worthwhile he makes himself

I fear I’ll be placed on the dusty shelf

Beyond arduous trying to pretend

That I’m not afraid that this might be the end