self confidence

trembling pale hands

dangling ten fingers

aching heart

words in the shape of swords daggering deep

vision blurry

thoughts of isolation

one shaking foot stepping back

away from all the chances

and possibilities

two steps back

head staring at cracks in the floor

murmurs of self hatred

three steps back

anger swarming

wishing to carry self confidence

and never let it go

four steps back

twitching legs darting into black

the internal fight begins

and never ends