Ambushed

I sat on the 2nd floor

Of a country bar with a mechanical bull

And felt you fall out of me

All over again

Two tears delicate enough

To shimmer down my cheeks

Without leaving

Two tracks

I have many moments

I want to say I’ve tidied the space

And exorcised all the closets

Metaphorically saged my body, mind and soul

But in moments like these

I remember

Despite all I know

Despite all I look forward to

Despite all that is around me

Right now

Part of me feels like she will always

Be curled up on that green couch

Head on your chest

Thinking I was home.