If My Tears

for my son...♥♥

If only every last one of my tears could save you

if I could take away your pain and angst you know I would quicker than a mothers heart beats I'd protect you from your unkind self & harsh realities,

give you every last ounce of my courage til I bled

time has taken away your youthful innocence playing in dark recesses of your reckless mind as you took that dark road down self destruction

I watched you grow into a strong man now I look at you a broken child again

there are no band-aids, no quick fix solutions

to cover these wounds you've self afflicted

if my tears could only take away your fears you'd have the sole sweet guidance of light

I watch you flounder in the dark without the promise of hope I'd give anything for you to be that untainted little boy again safe upon my knee where I could protect you from life's brutality If I could, I'd give my very last breath for you to see your way through there's nothing I wouldn't do, yet still I know I can't protect you this is your fight of a lifetime and I can only pray on bended knee I instilled in you enough fortitude and tenacity to find your own way

Reviews

[Michael G. Smith]

This is so tough for a parent to go through. The worry alone if your child will find strength to beat back the gale winds of a tempting world. I went through this with my son. He at 18 became an angry alcoholic also hooked on under the counter pills. He was raised in a religious home with me and his step mother but we couldn't stop him from moving into my ex-wife's home where there were no rules. The good news after several years of tears and prayers I got him to move back near me and he gave all of that up and turned his life back over to the lord. His life has gotten better every day. Now we are asking god to send the right woman into his life.

[Frieda P]

Thanks M.G. this is a tough one to come back to as it's still an ongoing struggle, good to know there are happy endings.

[Michael G. Smith]

Now we are working on our middle daughter. She's a tougher nut to crack.

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

I know what this is about and I can feel the heartbreak and hope in your words. A little faith can go a long ways but it still don't make the situation easier.

[TL Boehm]

there is nothing on this earth that can crush a heart like a suffering child. Doesn't matter whether the child is four or forty - the mauling is the same. And we would fight a dragon for them. I feel this in this piece. I feel that ache. And more than my heart wants to tell you - this is a real, transparent and emotionally resonant poem - It wants to say, Hey. I'm a mom. I get this. And if I could hand off my sword to you - here it is. If I could gut that dragon with you - here I am. I get it. I get it. Peace.

[Claire Twinn]

All we can give is our love, and it seems so little against life's cruelties. You captured the torment parents go through when their child suffers. We all hope and pray for you both.

[Rita L. Sev]

Mother's love is so powerful, but still it cannot keep all harm away. This is an emotional and honest poem, beautiful in its unabashed affection. With your permission, I would like to share this with a friend who is going through a crisis with his son as well. I know he would agree with every word.
You have my most earnest positive vibes and prayers, Frieda.

[Frieda P]

No it can't unfortunately, especially when they're grown and no longer under your influence, it would be my honor Rita, my heart goes out to your friend also, the pain is debilitating, thanks so much for your kindness.

[Rita L. Sev]

Thank you, Frieda.

[Sami Khalil]

"I watch you flounder in the dark without the promise of hope
I'd give anything for you to be that untainted little boy again
safe upon my knee where I could protect you from life's brutality
If I could, I'd give my very last breath"
Very heartfelt and so emotional to say the least. May things work out for the best and your heart will be calmed and energised with hope again. (Apples of the eyes are the light of tomorrow but a hearache in their dark seasons...)Sami Khalil
Thank you for sharing...:)

[Frieda P]

Thank you kind sir, much appreciate your words here Sami.

[Sami Khalil]

My pleasure...:)

[Sami Khalil]

^^~^^:)

[kublakhan27]

Well, we've already talked about this not long ago so there isn't much else I can say here...you are the ultimate mother, and I firmly believe that he'd be in much worse shape were it not for you...I'd suggest reading this out to him next time you talk to him...just be there for him in any event...sometimes a son just needs that affirmation, and it goes a long way...I will continue to hope for a happy ending for you both.

[Frieda P]

Yes we have extensively, and you've been a very good friend to me, we kid a lot but I know you have my back and I you, thank you kindly Steve.

[kublakhan27]

Always a pleasure Frieda :) xo

[wynn]

This is a very heartfelt poem and I know exactly where you're coming from... when a child or a loved one strays from us, we often try to blame ourselves... but the biggest lesson that you can learn in this kind of situation is that really it isn't your fault..

I understand that feeling of hopelessness so well. I'm sorry Frieda. :( Nevertheless, it was a very good read.

[Frieda P]

Thank you for your kind words hyottoko, I don't think there's a greater pain than watching your child suffer. Much appreciate the sentiments here.

[redflutterby]

Its hard to realize there's nothing we can do but pray and hope. While he travels this dark road you follow at a distance always keeping him in sight. Your love is the light that will hopefully keep his feet on the right path. Sending you love and comfort sweetie... xo

[Frieda P]

I hope you're right Red, it's so much harder when they're grown and you feel so helpless...thanks so much. xo

[gabrielle]

As i read this piece, it reminded me once again that nothing could really surpass a mother's love to her child. This is very touching sad piece Frieda. My hugs...Advance Happy mother's day!

[Frieda P]

Thanks so much gabrielle, much appreciate the wishes and your touching comments.

[Ken Simm.]

Sadness and fear but also pride and hope comes through this in bucket loads. Tenacity wil be there you only have to look at the Mother.

[Frieda P]

Very sweet of you to say Ken, thanks for your sentiments here, much appreciated.