Tattered ragdoll...

~an old creepy one, revamped & revisited

There once was a little girl, 

    who came into this life 

        filled with hope and zeal 

twinkling within wide eyed innocence,

she's left tattered and torn 

   her outward appearance 

       still appears shiny 

deep within the padding 

      there's a darkness so vile 

 

She looked up to him,

     expecting unconditional love

         and  unyielding protection

led into the lion's den,

     unaware of his intentions 

      her balance thrown 

               her purity shorn 

still continues along on her way,

      ...naivety shocked, 

she prayed within her crushed soul, 

Jesus never heard her pleas

 

Ultimately, developed into a woman 

   yet,  the child remained, 

wounded and fragmented,

         smashed beyond recognition 

          with words silenced 

     and wings broken, 

the journey was arduous 

              the end result troublesome, 

 ponders expectations of decisive justice 

 

Still feels like an old ragdoll 

            even though she's fully grown, 

her outward facade dissimilar 

                from the  shattered stuffing inside 

tries to turn it around, 

        reverse the reviled past 

          she lands in the median 

    stuck in fractured segments 

...still hopeful for survival

Author's Note

Reviews

[Rene Salinas]

Well this is heartwrenching but beuatifully poetic. Frieda gets me tangled up inside with this kind of thing plus she throws in that monster track that nearly made me headbang the wall great track (brownie points for that alone) but I fear that if I get stuck in the meaning I will diminish the poetry so in this ocassion I will go that way (points south). The language and the fact that the narrative has a story like quality was engaging as she uses the naivety of a child to relay convictions and how all that innocence was treated badly to say the least. Fast forward to adulthood and the image of the ragdoll which is really powerfull and the recognition that although she wants to change the past is not something that can just be thrown out of the windows as if.

Pretty Poetry

Thanyou

[Frieda P]

I'm not so sure it's pretty, but thanks so much for your thoughts Rene.

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Such powerful and profound hurt, dismay and sadness in a bewildered child's psyche which can only be chased by an equally powerful force. Love and trust!

[Frieda P]

You make it sound so simple John, but it's not that easy connecting the dots....

[R Smith]

great sadness in here and the sense of distress is like an animal prowling through the poem, though she tries to turn the abuse and suffering into hope and love it seems in the end her dreams are dashed to the ground.

[Frieda P]

Thanks for your kind words Richard, muchly appreciated my friend.

[Lyn Anderson]

This is raw, emotional, painful, and both an awful and an amazing thing to read. Yes, this is a perfect song too -- No one should ever have to feel this way, and far too too many do.

[Frieda P]

Far too too many, hopefully this reaches someone who has been in the same shoes, and they know they're not alone. Thanks KL.