Loud Silence

Loud Silence

A Poem by gentlekindness
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Aftermath of a relationship with someone with narcissistic personality disorder, borderline, and anti social personality disorder

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Your noise was in my ears
Every day
Every hour
Call after call
Your noise permeated my brain
Week after week
Month after month
Second by second
Your screams
Your demands
Your impatience
Your insistence
Your voice
I became used to that noise
I thought it was mine
Your thoughts mixed with mine
Out brains intertwined
I knew it was wrong
Someplace deep inside
But your noise felt like solace
From the storm
That was my life
I thought I could calm it
Quiet the storm
That was your brain
I tried to sing to it
Softly like falling rain
But your noise just got louder
Without the soft tones
In between the yells
That were there at the beginning
When your noise first
Entered my world...
Then one day it all stopped
And your noise went away
There was no more insisting
And no more insane rants
It was silence
Loud silence
Such a silence
It knocked me to my knees
Silence so loud
Like I'd never known before
Such a loud violent silence
No sound on the phone
I don't know what caused it
But the channel just changed
To static that hinted
At the noise that once raged

© 2016 gentlekindness


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Damn!!!! That is heavy! Such a familiar sound!

Posted 6 Years Ago


Me again - I'm having a surf around WC! I like this, though 'like' is not the ideal word. The stream of consciousness that comes from the flow phrases paints a very disturbing picture. The loudness of the silence part is equally well and evocatively done, in my view. The only thing I'm wondering is where are the last 6/10 lines that deal with the later on or the now. For me, I feel like I've been left hanging ... yes ... so the silence really 'raged' but since then ....? And then I read your reply to Coyote, which answered a lot of this as regards the real situation rather than the poem (I'm really glad you came out of it safely), but I still wonder if the poem should have a sort of post-script.

Regards
Nigel

Posted 7 Years Ago


Whoa, intense write. Amazingly written has great feeling vibed!

Posted 7 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

gentlekindness

7 Years Ago

Thank you for reading it and taking the time to give the thoughtful comment.
I will come rea.. read more
Cyprian Van Dyke

7 Years Ago

You're most welcome!
Thank you!
I felt the feeling of insanity and the voices. Sound of things needed and not. Rage heavy upon mind surrounded. Thank you dear friend for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

Posted 7 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

gentlekindness

7 Years Ago

Hi John,
I can see how you took it that way. One of the great things about poetry is that th.. read more
Coyote Poetry

7 Years Ago

I agree. Writing allow the reader to grasp what he need.
Sounds like me in a sense...
Narcissus looking for his Echo...

Posted 7 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

gentlekindness

7 Years Ago

It is so interesting how different people are getting different pictures from this poem. I like to w.. read more

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Added on August 26, 2016
Last Updated on August 26, 2016
Tags: Poetry, love, depression, sadness, dark, narcissitic personality disorder, narcissistic abuse, mental abuse, break up, breakup, loneliness, lonliness


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