My Dark husband

My Dark husband

Today I feel so emotional right now..
I hate this feeling.
I hate feeling so emotional.
I wish this feeling would going away.
I am walk home and it started to rain and I wishing that you were back with me.
I was in heaven when you were with me.
Since you leave me it has been hell.

I wish you could understand how I been feeling.
But you wouldn’t understand anything about my feeling.
You would never understand anything about me.
It is still raining very hard.
And I lock myself in my room never to see again.
One day I would kill myself.
And you will never see me again after that.
The month pass by and I am still thinking about you.
So I look outside my window the only things I can see are black crows.
The black crows are so beautiful.

The years pass by and today is day that my lover came back to me.
And he kept on saying that he was sorry for leaving you again, and I will not do that  
Again please take me back.
Now  I realist that you will never come back to me.
You have leave me for good and you never come back me.
A few month has pass by.
And a handsome, dark guy came knock at my door.
He was pale white , and hair was black and he take me by the hand and kiss it.

Another month has by and felt so happy being with you.
And than he finally ask me to marry him.
The wedding was beautiful and dark.
The first time in my life I realist how dark you really are.

He cut my wrist up and start drinking my blood and now I know whut he is .
He is my dark lord .
He is a vampire.
Every night he would go into my room, and try to bite my neck.
Normally she kept on saying no you can’t do this to me  I am your wife.
So the dark lord take a razorblade to my wrist and cut up my wrist and drinking my blood.



And after he drink my blood he take me into the other room and he left me there and he lock me in my room.
He left me food and water beside the doorway.
Whut should I do ?
Should I stay with him nor should I leave him right now ?

Another month pass by and I am still in room.
I can taste blood and metal in my mouth.
It is pass midnight and he come into the room with a razorblade in his hand.
The pain you caused me never will go away.
The abuse you put me through never will go away.
The cuts on my wrist will never go away.
I will never leave this place alive.
I look outside my window and it is raining.

It is always raining here.
I hate watching the rain fall down.
My husband is never around any more.
And he keep me lock up with no food and water.
Years has pass by.
And I still in this room.
I am weak and tired and I am hate myself for getting in this relationship.

So I broken the window open, glass is everywhere.
My wrist is bleeding and try to get out of the room.
So I jump out the window.
And think I broken my legs jump the window.
I try to get up and I keep on falling down.

And than I notion my husband was outside and he notion that I was bleeding and my legs broken.
So I start run away from him and than he start to run after me hold his gun.
So run faster.
I notioned that there was old Church so I run into the old Church.
And than I start to pray for forget.
I can hear gun shot coming from outside the Church .
So I start to pray some more so he could hear me.
Some how I knew he would shot me for leaving him.
I could just picture it how.
I wish he could leave me alone.
But I knew he can’t do that the find me in the church and said that “ I will never let you leave me and the next time you try and leave me I will kill you.”



So take his gun and I shot myself.
Before I kill myself I tell him I will never be your NEVER AGAIN.

This is the end for me.
Sometime I wish I had a best life at the end.
There is a lot of things I doing regret in my life.