My Secret Life

Please listen closely
To what I have to say
You make think of me lowly
But there is no other way

You see
I have a bit of history
Trust me
I would love to keep the mystery

But that would solve nothing
And my friend in you would leave
So instead I write this thing
So I won't have to grieve

I guess I'll start by telling you
How this all started
See my father was a man who
Kept us all from being parted

By us I mean my family
One with many misfortunes
Though we coped quite handily
They left us with distortions

It is sad
But its still true
My father made people mad
And made my mother quite blue

This caused most of our negatives
The events left unsolved
He is remembered for the hardships he gives
And the problems he caused

Even though he is dead
We still give him the blame
I don't remember a word he said
Although I still carry his name

Now a question
I'm sure arises
The level of my hesitation
Constantly growing in sizes

See I have yet to let go
A problem with accepting
For in me his blood does flow
Though I still recall his ending

A day I won't forget
No matter how I feel
A fate so many have met
A fate that caused mine to seal

My birthday is the end of May
His death was the start of June
I'm haunted by the very day
I lose sleep and look towards the moon

The day was just like any other
That night was what had changed
I still hear the screams of my brother
Sounding as if he were deranged

My sister only cried
Though I was unable
To learn our father had died
I dreamed it were a fable

I can remember every detail
Every passing second
The pain when I exhale
My life forever threatened

He was murdered the morning
By a man he called his friend
Without the slightest warning
All my happiness did end

Stabbed until he was no more
Until life abandoned him
The wounds numbered sixty-four
And made my life forever grim

No one had expected it
No one had a clue
To my sadness I did submit
To my happiness I bid adieu

This event has left me broken
It has led to much mistrust
Causing me to be cold and frozen
And do things that are unjust

One day I will come to
I'll accept the lost
And be born anew
Allowing me to defrost

So that is the story
In all its horrible glory.

Author's Note

This is entire thing was true. I wrote it so I would be able to cope with the events that happened.

Reviews

[Darkbynight]

Wow...just freaking WOW! I'm actually jealous that I didn't write this. Your emotion has obviously been POURED into this piece, and you didn't hold back. I really like that. :)
It's good that you've found a way to cope. :)
And I apologize for your loss.

[Skateprincess]

What a heartfelt poem I was sniffling a bit at the emotions in the poem and sometimes words and poetry or stories are the only way we can cope with the horrible things that have happened in our life

[misha]

This was an amazing poem. It flows very weel and I can feel the emotion in it. You did a great job, writing always lets us set our emotions free on paper or the internet.

[Deck_As_Heck]

wow that's an incredible story. i'm sorry for your loss. the rhyme scheme got lost a couple times but it was great.

[Peter Joseph Swanson]

A great poem!