A Break Down

A Break Down

A Chapter by J. Viands

I’ve been chasing God down Alice’s rabbit hole for a while now

Maybe I just need to stop pointing and pulling the trigger and put the gun down

Or point it at myself and unleash hell now

Hold on and I’ll break this down


Hell is oblivion I set myself in

For everyone in my shoes I try to take them with

This insanity is abusive

All consuming

And very approving of delusions


An allure that makes me breathless

Nightmares causing death wishes

Suspended in the air

My mother drowning herself

I’m literally falling to pieces


If you could see it

Everything that I’m not speaking

It would show you why I can’t deal with it

Why my cross is too heavy to bear even if I pass it

I’m just a Judas

I personally killed Christ and I can’t undo it


So what am I doing?

Playing in the ashes of the life I ruined

For some reason I keep on moving

Someone once had an idea that I could redo it

But the scars will always last so how do I do this?

© 2012 J. Viands

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This is and probably always will be one of my favorite pieces of yours. It flows beautifully and reminds me of a rap of some sort. It tells a story that I really enjoy.

Posted 11 Years Ago

J. Viands

11 Years Ago

Thanks it is a more popular one and other than Lewis Carol it’s not really inspired by anything

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Added on September 18, 2012
Last Updated on September 18, 2012
Tags: self, pain, insanity


J. Viands
J. Viands

Leesburg, VA

My writing is refined in to portfolios I write to much to be able to post all my poetry separately don’t feel obligated to read the whole thing just what you would like… or the whole thi.. more..

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