Constant tired

Constant tired

A Poem by Hazel Clark
"

I'm tired all the time and I don't know why, but I think I can take a wild guess which is my depression and I hate it because it's ruining my life and I'm being told to stay strong how do I do that?.

"
Constant Tired
By: Hazel Clark

Tired of depression
Keeping me up late
Waking me up
Because I'm scared

Trying to learn to be happy
Learning to boost self esteem
Learning to love my self
Taking my medicine at the right time

Tired of falling or almost falling back to sleep
Not what I used to do
Feeling numb
Feeling alone

Feeling worthless
Feeling useless
Feeling like I'm nobody special
I want to change everything

I want to be good enough
I want people to stop leaving
I want to mean something to someone 
And I'm just tired of it

That's why I'm constant tired

© 2020 Hazel Clark


My Review

Would you like to review this Poem?
Login | Register




Reviews

You've done a complete & accurate job describing how depression grabs a hold & seems to infect every aspect of life, especially sleep (lack of it or too much of it). The thing that jumps out at me, personally, is that this narrator seems to long for other people to play a part in helping him/her feel better about him/herself. In my lifelong experience with depression (I'm bipolar), I finally learned that I need to regulate how I feel & NOT based on whatever other people do or say. People will always disappoint. We would be depressed all the time if we depend on others to make us feel better about anything. People are self-absorbed in their own problems & feelings of depression. We can't take it personally when people ignore us, as they often do. This is just what depression has taught me. It's taken decades but finally I can see the light even tho depression is regularly knocking (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

Posted 2 Days Ago


Hazel Clark

2 Days Ago

Yeah it's holding onto me tightly
barleygirl

2 Days Ago

Keep writing if it makes you feel better. I'll read you & understand fully how it feels!
Hazel Clark

2 Days Ago

Yeah I mean I like getting my feeling out there
Hazel, this poem speaks to the wicked nature of depression. It's not one demon, but a million of those little devils trapped inside our heads, poking us at all hours with the stick of self-doubt, loathing, etc. The fatigue, as you've described here, is real. It's a mental fatigue that carries into every waking moment, like an anchor around both ankles. This is a glimpse into depression, and a striking one. So accurate and conveys the heaviness of every day. This one I'm certain many will relate to.

Posted 2 Days Ago


Hazel Clark

2 Days Ago

My problems are holding onto me and I can't do anything about it.
R.E. Ray

2 Days Ago

Must say I experienced the same in my 30s and 40s, until I decided not to allow circumstances dictat.. read more
Hazel Clark

2 Days Ago

It's not a good feeling

Request Read Request
Add to Library My Library
Subscribe Subscribe


Stats

38 Views
2 Reviews
Rating
Added on August 2, 2020
Last Updated on August 2, 2020

Author

Hazel Clark
Hazel Clark

Uniontown, PA



About
I'm a very bold person with a lot of experiences in life and love my writings and wouldn't change anything to make me stop writing or doing anything i love doing. more..

Writing