The Puddle

Getting through the bitterness of ended relationships (at least in my own perspective)

Thought of the day:

If there's one thing I hate to do, it's stirring up mud. It's clear until you dig at it to see what may have been buried underneath, and when it settles to where you can see why it was so clear. But that takes twice as long.

Same can be said for past relationships that didn't work out. It takes longer and longer to heal from the mud that gets caked on from the negativity, and you felt like you lost a piece of yourself. Maybe that piece was meant to be buried, and that person showed you why. But constantly going back and stirring up that mud (aka causing unnecessary drama) does not make your mind any clearer; it blinds it.

 It's wiser to avoid the drama and move on, to where the puddle is settled and it's easier to see. And what exactly do I see?

I see the real me. In the reflection of that puddle, holding the stick (the curiosity, the pain) in my hand, raised to where I am itching to stir up this mud. But instead I break the stick into several pieces, and finagle them together into a raft. I place the raft on the puddle gently, and it floats. 

Sometimes that pain can turn into something that can help you get through it, or float until you're safe. Something I struggled with was anger and constant frustration, along with being able to trust. Nothing was the way I wanted. I felt unwanted and neglected, even if I really wasn't.

I'm not saying I don't still struggle; my "mud" may be caked on pretty heavy to where I need a putty knife to get it off. But with every person I trust or every time I feel good about myself, chunks large or small crumble away.

We all have mud. Some of it slides right off like sediment, others caked heavy like clay. But it eventually crumbles off, revealing the person you've been searching for...yourself.

Author's Note

I'm always open to thoughts, opinions, suggestions, etc. I welcome them wholeheartedly

Reviews

[Darkswing]

That's a wonderful example and it may help a few people who are disappointed with themselves or others to see what they are worth in real life. Nice!! Good job!!!