To Belong

To Belong

A Poem by Litheos Ennius Taruc
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Sometimes, I see myself apart from the world, wandering in an endless sea of people. This poem shares such perspective.

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I have always thought that I was different.
That my ways are different compared to other people,
That I think differently from them,
And that I learn to see not just with my eyes or listen with my ears,
But I feel with my heart as well.
For as long as I can remember,
I have always been treated differently.
To be feared upon,
To be looked down upon,
To be an outcast,
Simply because I refuse to be like everybody else.
It has not been my choice to be Different,
Because I have been blessed, or cursed, with a Gift
That only a few people would understand:
A Gift that can see through the masks of other people
And effortlessly see their True Selves.
I do not want to overwhelm people,
And so, I resort to seclusion.
Not because I chose to,
But because, sometimes,
I sense things that I am not supposed to sense.
Whenever I am with people,
Regardless of what I see in them,
I sometimes feel strong emotions
that I know I am not supposed to feel.
I see joy in their faces,
But I feel the cloudiness of sadness in their hearts.
I see anger and vigor,
But I feel loneliness and depression.
I see good company and warmth,
But coldness and indifference is all I feel.
And so, it saddens me a lot to accept these things at once,
And not be able to tell them to the people I care about.
I do not want them to be confused,
And in worst cases, leave me altogether,
With fear that I am trespassing their most deepest, darkest thoughts.
So I keep these with me, my lips pressed together.
Never speaking. Never talking.
But the greatest fear that I have always faced,
Is not an encounter with an extremely evil force,
But with the fear of having to trod this path...
Alone.
I have always yearned to be with my own kind.
To be understood and not misjudged,
To be accepted as I am.
To be treated with love not because I have a Unique Gift,
But because they have seen me as a part of their own.

I see the evils in this world not as an end,
But an invitation to question its existence:
"Why do people behave so badly to other people?"
"Why do people always see fear when they see something different?"
"Why can't people be in a crowd and at the same time, stand up for their differences?"
Are just some of the questions that haunts me before I sleep at night.
They can treat me with indifference,
But I will never be a victim.
Because I believe that I am strong enough to be a victor,
Even when there is no war to begin with.
And I do not seek my revenge to them,
Because, like them, I too have been in their shoes:
To misunderstand the confused,
To betray the trusted,
To ignore the unloved.
And, it is in these moments do I learn to widen my understanding.
To understand them instead of sentencing them,
To put myself in their shoes before I treat them with or without care.

© 2016 Litheos Ennius Taruc


Author's Note

Litheos Ennius Taruc
Feel free to comment on this piece. :-)

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I can relate to what you are saying. I've always felt a certain alienation, of not fitting in and of sensing underlying thoughts and emotions. I think it helps to find a pet or close friend that is accepting. Through time I have found a few. The beauty of life is that there is teaming variety to it-- look long enough and you will find others like yourself.''
Keep writing,
Dan


Posted 5 Years Ago


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Litheos Ennius Taruc

5 Years Ago

Thanks dude. Same to you. :-)



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I can relate to what you are saying. I've always felt a certain alienation, of not fitting in and of sensing underlying thoughts and emotions. I think it helps to find a pet or close friend that is accepting. Through time I have found a few. The beauty of life is that there is teaming variety to it-- look long enough and you will find others like yourself.''
Keep writing,
Dan


Posted 5 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Litheos Ennius Taruc

5 Years Ago

Thanks dude. Same to you. :-)

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Litheos Ennius Taruc
Litheos Ennius Taruc

Quezon City, NCR, Philippines



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I'm just another curly kid with glasses. I have a multipotentialite mentality where multiple things as diverse as the arts and sciences gain my interest. Nonetheless, I love to write down poetry, and .. more..

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