Dance? Dream? Or False Reality?

"Having things return back to normal after something special happens, and wondering if it ever really occured."

Did it all really happen?

Did I really dance with you?

It's the first day back at school...

I can't look at you...

All i can think is,

I danced with him, and I liked it...

Of course you don't care

You probably didn't feel what I was feeling.

You carry on all day,

Like nothing ever happened.

 

I never had butterflies with you

Until we danced

We might have been forced too

Once

Or twice

Or thrice

That night...

But don't forget...

You asked me for one too...

 

Sometimes

My selfish mind

Wishes you wouldn't be such a gentleman.

I can't read you at all

Maybe you only danced with me because

You thought that to be what I wanted.

And I did

Want it.

But the question is

DID YOU

 

Did you really Want

To dance with me?

Or did you only ask me because

You saw that I was standing there

Staring out at the other couples dancing

Staring

Sadly,

Wishing

Wanting

Another dance...

With you...

 

Did you think it was your duty

To ask me to dance?

To raise my hopes

Sky high once more

To make me believe

Opportunity had come a-knock knock knocking

At my door.

 

Or...

 

Did something compel you?

Could you read my mind and see

That I really wanted you

Out there

On the floor

With your arms around me?

 

I guess

I'll never know

If you have any feelings...

They don't show

Or register on your face.

When I'm talking to you

With false happiness

Wishing

Wanting

There to be something

Shining in your eyes

I look

And it's no surprise...

I don't see anything...

 

Only the same kindness that you gladly show

Everyone.

Everyone but me...

Only in my dreams