A Poem by goldenElectric

Pain manifest. Like flammable burns.

You've done nothing wrong,
but I want you to f**k off
You've not been cruel,
but I never want to be a fool

This s**t proves I'm not done,
but I'm tired of losing blood
I don't take much space,
yet have a thousand cuts

Maybe this doesn't have to be hard
Maybe this isn't bad
Then I forget it all
After remembering the s**t I've had

Am I just a boy
and perhaps not grown?
Why would I open doors
after the cruelty I've known?

I'm just so tired
and it's so hard to stand
Like I'm held up by wires
and have stones for hands

Just stay away
Lights burn my eyes
I'm familiar with dismay
and get nauseous from heights

I'd rather be numb
than feel so much pain
If it all just ends,
was there anything I gained?

I just want to stay cold
I fight too hard for warmth
I may as well be old
as I'm ready to fall apart

No one should walk in
So they can't run out
That way I'm prepared
when wearing a frown

I just always hurt
and don't know where to go
With how little I'm worth,
it doesn't matter, I suppose

Don't know if I'm confused
or if my mind is free of thoughts
All I'm really certain of is
I just want the pain to stop

© 2019 goldenElectric

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Added on December 6, 2019
Last Updated on December 8, 2019
Tags: run, blood, numb, alone, loneliness



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