Runn

Pain manifest. Like flammable burns.

You've done nothing wrong,

but I want you to f**k off

You've not been cruel,

but I never want to be a fool

This s**t proves I'm not done,

but I'm tired of losing blood

I don't take much space,

yet have a thousand cuts

Maybe this doesn't have to be hard

Maybe this isn't bad

Then I forget it all

After remembering the s**t I've had

Am I just a boy

and perhaps not grown?

Why would I open doors

after the cruelty I've known?

I'm just so tired

and it's so hard to stand

Like I'm held up by wires

and have stones for hands

Just stay away

Lights burn my eyes

I'm familiar with dismay

and get nauseous from heights

I'd rather be numb

than feel so much pain

If it all just ends,

was there anything I gained?

I just want to stay cold

I fight too hard for warmth

I may as well be old

as I'm ready to fall apart

No one should walk in

So they can't run out

That way I'm prepared

when wearing a frown

I just always hurt

and don't know where to go

With how little I'm worth,

it doesn't matter, I suppose

Don't know if I'm confused

or if my mind is free of thoughts

All I'm really certain of is

I just want the pain to stop

Author's Note

Opinions welcome