Cheers and Tears

the first time i spoke (actually tried to recite what my teacher made me cram) in front of an audience. I was about 6.

Blatant dismissal of silent jeers

As my mind swam in seas of tears

After so much paractice now i faced my fears

Face to Face, Mouth to Ears

Screams and cheers

Gentlemen and chairs

Then I heard my name

I could see my name

bouncing of the walls

In front of that mammoth audience

My somewhat diminutive presence 

Finally something I was more afraid of than darkness

I SHOULD NOT HAVE COME

I SHOULD HAVE STAYED AT HOME

I SHOULD HAVE STAYED IN BED

Trembling I remember what my mother said

'look at them, don't let them look at you'

But even she stared

...

I closed my eyes, startled, I started to stutter

...

Reviews

[Shirlena]

Stage fright why I am scared to get on stage and you described the journey of fear of being watched, judged and fear of your own ability not to deliver. You even offered a lot of wisdom "don't let people watch you, watch them" ( I know not at exactly-smile). Here's the hitch, as terrified as I be...somehow it still comes out better. Great write Ja!

[Sami Khalil]

Very honest and straight forward experience of the narrator. A splendid poem Jamil...:)................

[Saddam]

I SHOULD NOT HAVE COME
I SHOULD HAVE STAYED AT HOME
I SHOULD HAVE STAYED IN BED......

This is very relatable poetry. Expressed very effective way. I likely like it..... much praised work.