Can't Ask You to Come Back but That's Still What I Want

4/14/16

I love you

Even if you don't love me too

I love you

Even if you don't want me to

I never asked for all of this

And I never saw it coming

I never ran from your kiss

Because I knew I loved it

And I didn't ask

To have you leave me here

In your wake

As you walked away

And I love you

Even if you don't love me too

And I love you

Even if you don't want me to

And I need you on my mind

Morning, noon and night

Because I just do

And I learned so many things

Like what true happiness can bring

Because I've been in love before

But it was never like this

And even if you don't love me

I need you in my memory

Just to remind me

Fairytale romances

Exist

And you weren't perfect

But you were to me

You had flaws

But not like everybody else does

I loved those flaws

I loved those imperfections

I love those flaws

I love those misdirections

And I love you

I love you

Even if you don't love me too

I love you

Even if you don't want me to

I didn't choose to feel this way

It just came upon me

And I cannot just escape

It's wrapped tightly around my 

Heart

Like you are

And the fact that you don't love me

Doesn't mean a thing

Because by now you've got me

And I'll be anything you need

If you don't want to kiss me

Or hold my little hand

If you don't want to touch me

Or go out anywhere

That's okay

Or so I'll say

And it'll hurt me

To watch you fall in love again

And it'll hurt me

To see you forget

And it'll hurt me

To see you standing tall

But I'm just your friend right now

Best friend hopefully someday

And I can't tell you what to do

Or that it hurt to see you today

And you don't know the pain of heartbreak

Until it touches you

And I thought I knew it so well

Until it came again

It's different now

And I don't know how

But I have to think it's you

And I love you

Even if you don't love me too

And I love you

Even if you don't want me to

And I can't help but to care

To stand and think and stare

I can't help but to want to touch you more

You don't even know how hard it is

There is still time when I

Want to hug you, and tight

When I tell you that I love you

And I didn't mean to 

But I meant it

And I didn't ask to

To love you, but I do and I did

And I can't help but to think

About why I can't be yours

I can't help but to think

That I wasn't enough

I can't help but to think

It was your depression that divorced me

I can't help but to think

You said you loved me

But never really did

And I know that's wrong of me

I know that that's not true

But that's almost easier

To think of than that I just lost you

Just because

I just did

Something stopped

And that was it

And maybe I should

Should have loved you more

But I can't have regrets now

You still need me somehow

And I promised you

That no matter what I'd be there

I can't start lying now

Not when the stakes are high like this

Your life is on the line

And I'm stuck on petty s**t

And I know

That these feelings are selfish

I'm trying not

To let them win

But whenever there's a second free

You're the thing I think of first

I can't help that I do

I love you through and through

Through thick and thin

Through wrong and right 

Through yes and no

And the harshest fight

I'm in love with you

And I never asked for this

I never asked for my heart to be destroyed

I never asked for this

I never asked to fall in love with you

I never asked for this

To be a mess like this

Where all I want is to

To be loved by you

I never asked for this

I never wanted this

But it came anyway

And now

I can only miss it

It might return some day

But if I'm honest

I'm sure it won't

Things shouldn't go this way

I'm in pain

You're in pain

We're being friends but all in vain

And I don't want to let him go

I cannot let him go

Not yet

Not soon

I'm not sure I ever will

So let me say it now

So I can hear it for myself

You're not coming back to me

I need to be happy

Alone

But I love you

And I swear I always will

I love you

And I thank you for the time you gave me

I love you

And you made my life great

I love you 

AndI won't forget this ever

I love you

And I'm there for you always

I'll smile through the pain

I'll pretend it doesn't ache

I'll pat you on the back

I'll help you get on track

And if you ever want

I'll help you get the next girl too

That's just what you do

When you love someone

Like I love you.