That Girl

I wrote this when I went through depression like six months ago. I'm a lot better now, but this is how I felt back then. It was the hardest time of my life...so far. I pray I never have to go through that again.

That Girl

 

 

Here I watch as my life falls apart

Everything I’ve known

Everything I am

Slowly dissolves into thin air

My faith, where is it?

I can’t find it

Hidden deep under all that chains me

Loneliness- friends, but not the friend

School- concentrate on not screwing up your future

Love- belief in love is lost

Family- I watch as my mom gets more and more depressed

God- feels further from me than ever

Life- wondering if it’s actually worth all this pain

Suicide is not the answer

Tell me something I don’t know

Inflicting pain doesn’t help either

I know that too

It still doesn’t stop me from wondering

I try to go back and be me

But who is this me?

This girl full of joy

This girl who always talked about God

This girl who brought a smile to everyone’s face

I envy this girl

Why can’t I be her?

I used to be

Until all these chains held me

Break open the chains

I’m screaming it

God where are you?

I need you!

Why aren’t you doing anything?

So I go

Pretending everything is all right

Hoping every day I’ll see a glimpse of that girl

That girl

Who used to be me

 

Reviews

[UpComesDown]

I pray that you dont have to go through that again as well... i wuv woo jumbie

[Ice Queen of the Vampir..]

I can completely relate to all of the emotions in this poem. Depression isn't a fun thing to go through. I'm glad you're doing better also. :) This is a powerful poem and thank you for sharing it.

Heather