Despicable

Originally composed Sept. 1, 2010. Gives how I feel about myself versus how I am seen by my God.

I am not a great man

I am not a good person

I am not clean being

Mine is tainted flesh

I am not bad

I am not rotten

I am not even, disgusting

I am despicable

When I think of you

When I compare myself to you

When I am asleep

When I am awake

When I eat

When I drink

I am despicable

And still, you love me

Still, you want me

Still, you chose me

Still, you bought me

Lord, you bought damaged goods

You bought a dirty soul

Paid the price

Bought the slave

And set me free

When I think of you

When I dream of you

I see good

I see righteous

I see holy

It is funny

just to think,

Thats how you see me

I call you "God"

You call me, "Friend."

Reviews

[Holly Mason]

like the last two lines
I make decisions based on the-what would jesus do effect
I walk in his shoes I put myself in harms way blindly blocking out my own pain
this is a very nice way to express yourself-I liked it much
the title grabbed me
thank you for sharing

[Josh Davis]

Thanks for your review. I greatly appreciate you reading my work.

[therisa]

Please forgive me, but your definition of sin and mine, are different. In this poem, I read of a man struggling to find acceptance of himself. But than again, I'm not a Christian, although raised in a family that went to church. Hope, my words aren't taken as an affront to your religious views, for none was meant. If so, I am sorry.

[Josh Davis]

Thank you for your review, I greatly appreciate your taking the time to read my work.

[therisa]

Your welcome. Please continue to write.