Toxic ChapterA Poem by butterflyI am not afraid to be alone I am not afraid to be without him you know This mission I have been given can be frustrating It wasn't the one I choose Yet I think about the other side The land of husband and wife I see how they are treated It is a life I can do withoutI was raised in sacred ground Where love is what you mean what you say Where you say what you mean My sisters found that dream Yet God set me on a different destiny I was guided by a good mother and father who stayed together Why now have I fallen in this darkness that seems to last forever Why does my heart choose you He is bad Yet the best I ever had I just need to forget I guess this is what it feels like to be addicted to a drug He dangled it in my face Like a sad mad crack lover there was no escape I think of it now while I am wide awake I tried to block him Yet he still is in my veins I am an addict of a different kind I try to free it from my life Try to meet someone new They want to know how it is when i touch myself They want me to watch porn with them Where are the good men I dont know Right now I find myself coming out of the tunnel All of this emotion I catch and release through a funnel He is a true disaster Yet my dream of happily ever after What we have is just dirty I still want him with me I just need God I am blind and I still cant see I just need a miracle to help me find a way to peace I just need to swim to safety Yet everytime I try He catches me midflight I try to swim away Under his tidal wave my heart just wont behave He is the one I crave over and over again Still playing my heart strings faster and faster He is the one I want My happily ever after My true disaster I thank you for this feeling Before I was numb Now I am just dumb The cool girl in me defrosts maybe I was born broken and this is my healing When I am ready maybe in the end there will be love Where did the pain come from When everything is shiny and beautiful Why do I choose you You can run free I never wanted a future F**k if I knew how to be a romantic We dont put a label on it there is no need to panic so we can be free i want to be free like you I am still under his haunt He is also what I want I crave love but I can't commit At least I am aware of what is within There is no crime I have done Except kissing him with closed eyes Loving him like a silly child Yes I want to keep him He is the reason My season of happily ever after My true disaster The toxic chapter I am a cool girl I just want to be free and taste the world He tastes like a pearl He makes makes my body curl In a way its a shame. From each other we can't forever break He says I am the one he will want always Though its wrong I can't stay away I knew he was bad from the start He has crept in to my heart I can't complain I dance in this rain My happily ever after is a true disaster A mixture of pleasure and pain I just want to do what I like With each bite I come alive As I enjoy the high of this toxic chapter
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Added on May 16, 2021 Last Updated on May 16, 2021 Author
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