Asinine

I chased the moons and rainbows

To the edge of tomorrow

I dont know If you will be there

Forever is not a true promise and I am aware

He said he wants a  house in Los Banos

The true goodbye may loom nearer and it makes me feel scared

 I wonder why we were never promising each other that happy ever after life

I said I wont see you anymore

He said I will still see you

Nothing is true

i  won our last bet and I still didnt get my prize

I think his words dont have real meaning I have come to find

Yet the thought of goodbye makes me want to cry

Making me feel asinine

He taught me that word

Told me try to use it in a poem I didnt think it was absurd

Funny inspiration is the cure

no matter how this chapter ends at least we know the magic is pure

His car was running on e and he ran out of money

In debt waiting for the settlement

He has nerve damage

I ran my hand up his arm as I got the gas tank moving with my credit card

He wondered if this is how his dog feels when it gets pet

I told him you have to listen to learn what the dog says

they communicate with their looks and their sounds

then we talked about random things now

I asked him how he got nerve damaged

he said from poling a cable

i tried to understand but found myself disabled

He was asking if I was joking or for real

He says sometimes I am too silly he can't tell

He wanted me to be serious

i felt scolded

He was my daddy and I  was the child

He said he is stress and he is tired

I said why whats going on

Life and bills

Then he noticed my hands and said they look so little

Then he held them and said he wondered how they would look if I wrapped it around him

I said we will find out after he gets his settlement

After he gets divorced

He doesnt like I write about him in my poetry

Yet he can't stop this outside force

Then when he dropped me off at my house

He said I have to hug and kiss you now

Like a declaration I am left lost lost in aggravation

Even in this confusing day

This revelation shows me i love him always

Even while he loves someone else I will still love you

I dont know why

Maybe this is the true meaning of asinine