All I Want is to Die!

All I Want is to Die!

A Poem by ~Kali~
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It;s a bit scattered, but it's one of my deepest.

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I think about suicide
Almost everyday
While others live in color
I merely live in gray
The smile that I wear
Isn't actually real
The happiness I show
Isn't how I really feel
Gun, bottle
Knife, blade
So many things
To take the pain away
I want to kill myself
But I'm not brave enough
Why is it so hard?
Why is life so rough?
You might be wondering
Why I'm always so upset
But telling people how I feel
I always regret
"Your life is fine!"
"Just don't be sad!"
You say all these things
Then wonder why I feel bad
Can I be fixed?
Probably not.
I'll just end up in hell
Where my corpse will rot
I'm not okay
Can't you see?
Just know when I die
It was all because of me.
I'm broken and bruised
All alone
I'm just an angel
That wants to go home

© 2016 ~Kali~


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Such a powerful & stiking piece of work you've presented! I'm speechless...but I can understand the haunting thoughts, yet never having enough courage to go through with them. I have thoughts of suicide every now & again, but I always tell myself that the pain will eventually pass...no matter how long it stays for. I always feel I am not good enough for anyone; my family, my boyfriend, even myself. I have those days where it gets to be too much & I just want to end it...but then I think back & realize that I would lose everything I've worked for if I decided to go through with it. We all have a purpose & you are not alone with how you feel...

Posted 7 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

~Kali~

7 Years Ago

thank you for all the great reviews! And I like that you pointed out that you'd lose everything you'.. read more



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Alone is the angel that has fallen,
She took a gamble and went all in
She took the stairs to heaven
She spoke to god and then
took a leap of faith
what a shame it led to suicide
a heap upon the asphalt no one can hide
dont deny you watched her do it, saw her pain inside
now you wipe your face and cover your eyes
and in your hands is a piece of her mind


Posted 7 Years Ago


~Kali~

7 Years Ago

that's beautiful...
Michael Leon Wilson

7 Years Ago

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Such a powerful & stiking piece of work you've presented! I'm speechless...but I can understand the haunting thoughts, yet never having enough courage to go through with them. I have thoughts of suicide every now & again, but I always tell myself that the pain will eventually pass...no matter how long it stays for. I always feel I am not good enough for anyone; my family, my boyfriend, even myself. I have those days where it gets to be too much & I just want to end it...but then I think back & realize that I would lose everything I've worked for if I decided to go through with it. We all have a purpose & you are not alone with how you feel...

Posted 7 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

~Kali~

7 Years Ago

thank you for all the great reviews! And I like that you pointed out that you'd lose everything you'.. read more
Kali, I felt this in my soul, my heart. Keep your expression always as truthful as this x

Posted 7 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

~Kali~

7 Years Ago

Thank you! It took awhile to write this one, glad it was worth it :)
i felt this poem from within. it tells the raw truth and doesn't skip out. very well done!

Posted 7 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

~Kali~

7 Years Ago

Thanks! And it is, I feel sad and lonely a lot of the time, even for no reason! :/ glad you liked it.. read more

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Tags: deep, dark, suicide, suicidal, teen, girl, teen girl

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~Kali~
~Kali~

George, IA



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I'm a teen that likes to write dark poetry. Most of them will rhyme. Poetry is one of the only ways to get my feelings out! ^~^ more..

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