I wish to shed skin

As fathers day nears, My skin I shed....... or at least try too.

Upon my skin, laced by your curse

Upon my mind, memories rehearse

 

Within' my life, one hard to grasp

Within' my head, It cirlces in laps

 

Invaded by sickness, one of yours

Invaded by thoughts I wish to ignore

 

Broken by touch, one you can't heal

Broken by thought, my senses it steals

 

Robbed of security, love, and trust

Robbed of childhood, one I can't make-up

 

Left to deal with the after math of drama

Left to live with unjustified reason of trauma

 

Forgetting not an option, it sticks like my skin

Forgetting to fogive, you created this sin

 

Forgiving a sickness, there is such thing

Forgiving you, will always sting

 

Alone at your worst, you deserve less

Alone at my worst, I deserve to confess

 

Twisted like the weather, unpredictable at times

Twisted in the moment, forgiving hard crimes

 

Playing like a record, spinning round and round

Playing in my head, I wish to stop the sounds

 

Ending to it all, may never be in sight

Ending to your sickness, that hot summers night

 

Finally caught within' the lies, a chance to put you down

Finally speaking my mind, of abuse you spread around

 

I will never call you father, dad or man of house

I will never heal within, but least I made it out 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Reviews

[karmax]

Thank you Cheryl...correct you continue to heal yourwhole life...20 years later it is as fresh as a fallen rain....Soul to speak: A purge is it!! As for the apostrophe on within, I am not sure why I did?! lol...just so happened and got left, thank you for your comment...And Day thank you for reading too!

[Poet Cheryl]

You have done a great job in expressing some very deep and hard to deal with emotions. I think this kind of healing is a lifelong journey that continues to get easier with time. Very well done.

[Beth Winter]

Great use of repetition, this is like a purge. I wonder why you used an apostrophe after the word within. It isn't shortened or a possessive in any way. I enjoyed this creative poem.

[Daytonight]

Wow! What an intensely written poem. Great job. Thanks so much for sharing this with us!