The Past

What the past does to me now.

My memories never fade.
They stay somewhere,
In the back of my mind.


And I can remember them,
Every single day of my life.


And I hate that.


The past is haunting me.
It's reminding me of my,
Past mistakes.


And now, 
I'm scared every time,
I do something.


Because I'm scared,
I'll regret it later,
Like all the other things,
I've done in my life.


I've made so many wrong choices,
Done so many bad things.
I don't want to remember it all.
I want to forget everything,
That ruined my life from the past.


By why won't the past disappear?
I want to move on,
And do the right things.
But the past,
Is bothering me...


I remember the sadness I felt,
The days I spent crying,
The moments I made the stupidest choices,
The days filled with pain,
That I had to live through.


Those days,
Are ruining what's going on now.
I feel so scared right now.


I feel like I'm going crazy.
I just don't know,
What to do anymore...
Ive lost all hope...

Author's Note

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