Instant HeartA Story by Suicidal Teddybeara couple meet over the internet and their relationship developesIt was 3 o’clock and I was ready to
head home. I liked school, but there was nothing like going home and chatting
to friends on the Internet. I have found the most influential and kind
people there. Yes not everyone is like that on the Internet but that’s also
true in real life. When the bus came to a halt at my stop I turned and said
goodbye to my best friend Amy. “Bye I’ll text you later and let you know about
the gathering at my house.” In honour of the boy wizard’s birthday I decided I
wanted a party, and by party I mean a day of eating junk food watching Harry
Potter, listening to wizard rock and playing Harry Potter scene it. This and
the thought of having 6 weeks off for our school holiday made for a very
distracted walk to my door. As I opened the door I was greeted by my little
sister hugging me around the waist. “Yay Claire’s home” She looked up at me
with a big smile on her face, being 7 she was still in the stage of thinking I
was amazing at everything. “Hey Sophie, how was school?” She shrugged at
me and smiled a little “It was boring until we got to choose a book to read if
we had finished our work. I always finish so I can read my Harry Potter books.”
Yes I Claire Evens have converted my sister into a potter head. After
sitting down with the family for tea I made my way to my room and with full
intention of doing my research and homework, I turn on my laptop. Now I should
say that I do not help myself in this instance as my homepage is not a search
engine but my favourite website. This leads to Facebook being open and me
looking at the nerdfighter fan page. ‘WHY didn't I know of this group before?
WHY, I ask???? This world has proven to be unfair to the likes of me...’ Some
person had commented on the page and I saw a comment below saying “Nerdfighteria
welcomes you with open arms” this made me smile and I added a comment “yes, now
revel in new friend making”. I smiled to myself thinking that someone was about
to make new friends in this community, which instantly accepts anyone. As I was
checking my news feed I saw a friend request from the boy who had commented on
the post. James, his name was, seemed very nice and charming. Needless to say I
neglected my homework and we got to talking on chat for most of the night. Claire Evens: where do you live anyway? James
Wilkinson: Harrow James
Wilkinson: oh yes ever so thrilling I think I’m going to have to leave you in
order to do some research of my own as I am so jealous... James
Wilkinson: I’ll just have to catch the next one, now do your work and I’ll
leave you in peace till next time. Good night.
I did my work, eventually; it took me a few hours to gather enough usable information or my essay. I slipped into my pyjamas and snuggled into bed and every muscle in my body relaxed. There was no better place in the world then my bed. If I could take it everywhere with me I would. I was soon asleep and due to my conversation with James had a night of restful sleep and pleasant dreams. I woke up with a smile still on my face. Being in a good mood meant I was ready for school in a matter of minutes. I walked down stairs to see my mother making mine and my sister’s lunch. I went over to the counter and offered to help, seeing as I was usually not a morning person this was not my usual behaviour, alerting my mum to my mood. “What's made you so happy? You’re grinning like an idiot.” I stood still with my mouth slightly open feigning shock and disgust. “How very dare you I am a delight every minute of every day and as my mother I expect you to lie to me and lavish me with compliments all the time.” I laughed as I hugged her around the waist. She smiled down at me and kissed me on the head “you’ll be late for school.” I grabbed my bag and walked out the door and towards the bus stop. As I turned the corner to catch the bus Amy was waiting to hug me. “Hi, how was your night?” I blushed slightly as I thought about my conversation with James last night. “It was... eventful.” Amy looked at me confused. “What happened? Why are blushing? What are you keeping form me?” She turned to me and pushed me playfully. “Well I started talking to this guy last night. He’s really nice and quite hot. We spoke for hours on chat.” As we got on the bus and took our seats, Amy was just looking at me. “Well do I get to see him?” I took out my phone and showed her a picture of James. “Oh My God he is fit.” I just looked at her smug “I know right?” We were walking to the school about to go in. As it was our last day for the year, had no real work to do we would be able to go on to facebook and talk to James. Claire
Evens: ha I win I win I W I N Amy turned to my screen and looked at our conversation “No wonder you get along so well he’s the male version of you.” She laughed and turned back to her own to give me some privacy. Because the computer room and library were full of people wanting to use the computers we weren’t allowed on them for long to make it fair for everyone. It was lunch time and I was still thinking about James. Amy was trying to get my attention for a while before I realised. “CLAIRE!” I snapped out of my day dream. “umm I’m sorry. What is it Amy?” She looked at me suspicion in her eyes. “You were thinking about him weren’t you?” I blushed as I tried to form a response that didn’t give me away or make me sound weird. “I knew it. You really like him don’t you?” I nodded my head realising how much I liked him and feeling ridiculous I barely knew him.
As the weeks went on I was getting
more and more attached to him and our conversations. We were talking almost
every day in the holidays. I would go out with my friends and have a good time,
but all the while I would be thinking about James. Dear Claire, I don’t know how to say this but I'm moving we won’t be able to meet as easily as we thought. I really hope we can though; it would be lovely to get to know you in the flesh. Please don’t be disheartened we can make whatever this is work. Well I’m going to let you read this now. Again I'm sorry and remember I’m disappointed too. As I read the message I felt numb and silly. Why was I so affected by this news I hardly knew the boy and I had never met him why was I so upset that he was leaving? I just sat in my room that day trying to figure things out in my mind. I listened to my music lying on my bed trying to think if I should reply to this message or not. I had done it before had friends on the internet for a few months that the communication went stale, why should this be different? But as I thought of this option it hurt me and I knew I couldn’t do it. So I replied. James Don’t feel bad about the situation; it’s not your fault. Don’t worry about me that’s silly just have fun in your new place. I felt a little better after getting
my thoughts organised. That night I saw him online.
The next morning I was still struggling
with what I should do. But I knew the answer as all I wanted to do was check to
see if he was online or had left me another message. He was online and I
started talking to him. But I gave myself a time limit this time as I wanted to
get out of the house and stop my dependence on our conversations it wasn’t
healthy. I was feeling a bit ill and needed some fresh air anyway. Clair Evens: wow that’s far, but I guess it could be worse. That's still classed as Britain. James Wilkinson: I know, I hate my parents for making me go. You know I have no choice right, that if I could I would stay there with you? Claire Evens: I know you would, but I don’t know if that makes thing worse or not. Any way I have to go I need to get out of this house.
I shut down my computer and went for a
walk; I wasn’t sure where I was going or what I wanted to do. I ended up on a
bus to Harrow town centre, I don’t know what I was expecting if I was expecting
anything. Maybe I was hoping I would bump into him on a last minute rush to get
something for the move. But I was wondering around all sorts of different shops
with no real interest in anything. I just wondered aimlessly around picking
things up and not really looking at them. When it got to about 4 o’clock I
thought I had best head back so I did. The bus ride was not what I needed time
on my own with nothing else but to think. I gave up looked out the window and
let my mind wonder with the stimulants going past. When I got in and turned on
my computer I have a message from James. I went straight to bed.
The next week all I did was wait for
James to come online. I didn’t know what to say to his message so I hadn’t
replied. By the end of the week I had work I didn’t like work at the best of
times, but today was particularly bad. My boss wouldn’t stop giving me hassle
all day. She seemed to particularly hate me more than all the other staff. When
my day finally ended I went home and sulked in my room for a little while.
After an hour I decided to turn my computer on and was all too happy to see
James online. Claire
Evens: yup and I am on verge of tears because I DON'T want to spend 7 hours
with my judgemental, bitchy, sly, conniving, bullying, patronising, humiliating,
hairy lipped B***H FACE W***E of a boss
And again I went to bed.
This pattern continued for a few more
weeks before school started again. I wasn’t looking forward to facing my
neglected friends. Over the weeks their attempts at communication lessened and
who could blame them they had tried and now given up adding to my sullen mood.
The only time my mood got better was talking to James. I hadn’t been thinking and I realised. Claire Evens: WOAH did you just say you were coming back? James Wilkinson: yes, yes I did are you excited? I can’t wait to see you. Claire Evens: where are you staying? Where will we meet? When did this happen? When are you coming back? James Wilkinson: Woah slow down. Not sure where I'm staying yet might be at a friend’s. We can meet anywhere you feel comfortable. About a month ago and I’m coming this weekend. I almost fell of my chair; I was shocked, excited and mad. Claire Evens: YOU DIDNT TELL ME! James Wilkinson: I wanted it to be a surprise plus now you don’t have to wait so long. I considered this for a second before replying. Claire Evens: I’m still mad at you. James Wilkinson: ok, well I have to go pack I’ll see you soon. I left the chat and got straight in to bed, this time not sulking or wishing the time by but excited and making plans. I would contact my friends tomorrow and apologise for my behaviour. Then I would organise things for James and I to do. I was surprised and scared at the complete shift in my mood from several small words but I ignored this. The next day I was practically jumping up and down the entire day, my change in mood went unnoticed by no one. “What’s up with you all of a sudden?” my mum asked me looking worried and slightly relieved. “Nothing, it’s just a lovely day outside.” I walked out the door and headed to Amy’s house. When I got there I knocked on the door and waited for her to answer. As she did I smiled widely “I know I’ve been a terrible friend recently but I'm back and I'm going to be the best friend I can be to make it up to you! And to start we’re going shopping!” Amy just looked at me then jumped on me and gave me a hug “I missed you!” We stood there hugging for a we noticed we were getting odd looks for people walking past. Amy got her things and we went shopping. It was only a matter of time before the questions started. “So, what's changed your mood?” and I looked away embarrassed just what I was hoping she wouldn’t ask. “Well, James is coming over this weekend and I know what you’re thinking but honestly I’m ok. I won’t go back to that sulky girl sat indoors all day waiting for him to come online. It made me realise that it’s ok if he’s gone for a while I’ll still get to see him and talk to him maybe not as often as I would like but it’s enough until the circumstances change.” Amy looked at me and smiled “I’m glad you’re happy again.” and hugged me. We walked around the shops and laughed like nothing had happened in the last few weeks. We spent most of the day walking around shops and didn’t realise the time when we both had to be home so we got on the bus. The whole of Friday I didn’t stay still. I was all over the place trying to find things to do. I would try and relax for a little while but I would get impatient again. I did my homework that I had to do over the summer it was due in soon anyway. And that was it nothing left to do, so I went to bed and watched films until I feel asleep. The next morning I woke up at 5am and started getting ready. I showered and did my hair several times until I was happy with it. I was going to meet James in the new shopping centre a safe place to meet with lots of people although I wasn’t suspicious. When it was time to leave I was worried I was going to be sick. I knew it was nerves but I was still worried I would mess this up. The bus ride was long and boring. I was counting the stops that would take me to James. When the bus finally stopped I bounded of trying not to knock people over, I was just so excited. I stood in the area we were meant to meet waiting for him to arrive. I was looking in every direction hopping to see him. As I was looking around searching for a sign of him someone came behind me and out their hands over my eyes. My heart skipped a beat when I turned around and there he was in the flesh tall and handsome I couldn’t catch my breath. He looked down at me smiling “What do you have planned for us today?” I pointed in the direction of the cinema he smiled and nodded as he led the way. I couldn’t believe I was finally with him and as we took our seat for the movie, he lifted up the arm rest and opened his arm I hesitated for a few seconds before deciding to cuddle into him. Throughout the movie he didn’t try anything he just held me tight like he didn’t want to let go. After the movie we went to a small park where we swung on the swings for a while without talking. After a time James turned to me and broke the silence “I have something to tell you. There’s a reason I’m back.” I looked up at him and wondered what he was going to say I nodded my head in encouragement. “I'm moving here.” I slowed my swing and finally came to a stop “You're moving here?” he nodded “I’ll be able to see you all the time?” he nodded again. I ran to him and jumped in to his arms and whispered into his ear “I love you.” And he simply replied “I love you too." © 2012 Suicidal Teddybear |
StatsAuthorSuicidal TeddybearPlymouth, United KingdomAboutGuhh well... where to start my life is prety much always an episode of eastenders lmao. umm well im nice talk to me if you want :D, umm yeah ask me anything and i'll reply i always reply lols, .. more..Writing
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