Shell

Protecting your heart through a surfeit of lovers....

Shell

I protect my heart

Because you never know who could tear it away.

Because I love too deeply,

And care too much,

Lay my entire skin in front of me too soon.

I don’t put all my eggs in one basket

For the fear of being crushed,

Of having my yolk spilled, once again,

Only pieces left of a once complete woman.

You want my lips,

But do you want my time?

You want my thighs

But do you want my mind?

You want these hands

But do you want my soul?

For with one gentle touch I can mend you whole.

So that’s why lovers lie before me

In no direction,

In no particular order,

Just there to fill….empty time.

And empty promises, and vacuous dreams

That melt away with one simple word

On a screen.

Waiting, yet hurting,yearning and turning

Into someone who is desolate,

Wants what she can’t get.

Fighting against this urge to

Achieve everything she sets her mind to,

Because that’s what she’s used to.

But she learned at an early age that love

Hurts like a wound,

And the only way to cover it is to expose too soon,

And run into another’s arms

For being with only one can leave you bruised.

But she’s lying to herself,

Going against what she knows to be right,

Because she’s too afraid to make the right choice,

Just to be left alone, once again.

Attention is like a drug,

And she’s feinding for so many

That she’s lost who she is,

Words of another carry more weight.

But she needs to make a change,

Mold this woman back into what she used to be,

Before it’s too late.

And time has left her to disappear

Into the shadow of herself.

Author's Note

Protecting your heart through a surfeit of lovers. Sometimes one is all you really need, but until then.....

Reviews

[Niall Madden]

I really like this, I feel perhaps this is a comment on the way we date now due to internet accessibility we are able to jump from bed to bed while waiting for the one, even though this may not be the right way...
although the same person in the poem seems to enjoy the lifestyle and toying with romantic partners "yearning and turning" the contrast of the two ideas pain and desire make the poem hit a more playful tone from my perspective it holds this good to be bad quality to it. good poem

[Kena Dawn Augustine]

Thanks so much! excellent review.

[Niall Madden]

no problem!

[emmajoy]

'So that’s why lovers lie before me - In no direction, - In no particular order, - Just there to fill….empty time.'

What a long scream of words from a wretched heart; tis so powerful, it hurts to read. You use words like bullets to express the most delicate emotions... such fine writing.

Tis good to see you back here, Kena.