the ring

“the ring”

11.17.21

10.10pm

someone is gnawing on my door,

but i don’t hear them because i’m too busy crying,

my body’s numb, and i don’t know why-

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the batteries of everything wants to jump on me and watch me bleed,

but it’s only coz i’m lonely, and bored, and unmotivated,

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someone is gnawing on my door, and i’m still crying on my floor, wishing the walls could cave in on me,

coz nothings like the way it used to be when you were standing next to me and we were putting on a system soma just to get by,

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i bet you could look into my eyes and see my pain,

what’s it taste like?

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is it novocain to your brain, can you give me something more?

cocaine all in your name, won’t you start lacin’ the floor?

baby, i-

‘m just- try

‘in to close my eyes-

oh darlin’

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kick me out, just to start again, playing house only to play pretend,

my hotel rooms’ got no key, you’re the only on in these sheets,

you’re not tryin’

i’m not lyin’

i been waking up too many times, and-

flyin’

singin’

“fly me to the moon”- and-

baby-

maybe-

my brain is f*****g crazy, you made me- no wait- that was shaney

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lately,

i’ve been feelin f*****g crazy,

oh, bite me!

you say you love me, smite me- don’t spite me,

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figured out the pawns while hearin’ you’re trynna wife me!