Give Me Contradiction!

I have bad anxiety and I'm only calm when I write, this is my one I wrote in geometry class and it's about how I feel abused and shoved around in school. IE the crowded hallways

I'm standing here broken down
Ripped apart and thrown around
Chocking on tears that feel like swallowing daggers
Never confident, always staggers
Silent screams inside my head
Please let me wake up dead
Feeling of anxiety
Can't take this society
Words fall in place with time
Stimulating these awful rhymes 
They have no reason nor make any sense
Constantly diseased with the hesitance
Falling backwards, feet refuse to move
Wasting time, with no more to lose

Author's Note

I know it's all ran together and there is, once again, no punctuation but that's how I jot everything down and I like my style