your whole world is jaded (and nothing but your shadow's on your side)

um this is fucked up read at your own risk

your trying, you swear

your trying to keep your shoulders high

fighting to live this life

but its hard

because it feels like no ones on your side and 

you want to scream that you arent good enough

you were never good enough

not even for your father

and you should be glad he's gone because he was a monster but

you struggle to not believe that it  was you that made that way

and now he's dead and he'd rather be dead than have you as his son

and your friends don't love you

she pushed you down a well 

screamed you just as bad as him

and her brother never has time for you either

he's too busy with his lovers

and your stepdad will never love you just right

because your not his son and he probably wishes you didn't even exist

so he could have another child of his own and not have to deal with all your crap but

your just a burden to your mother even though she loves you her life would be better if you'd died with your father

all you do is sadden her because she looks you in the face and you look like your father

and your father was a drunk who always hit her 

and now your just an addict like  him its what he left you with

your drugs and your anger and your probably gonna be just like probably even worse

because of all your anger and maybe the kids were right when they said you

should never ever et married cuz you'll just be abusive

and whats the point in existing if you'll just be a horrible person but

but

but your trying.

and you want to succeed

so you push all the thoughts away and try to be a better person