I love you

I searched myself

For some spark of definition

Hauntingly facing

That which I have become

Asking myself

What is real

What is performance

Where do I truly exist

Within this creation I present to the world

 

I kissed you softly

Remembered part of me

Longed to be more

And feared that who I am

Is not enough for you

 

I cried alone

Afraid to show who I am to you

To the world

To the mirror before me

What if I am not strong enough

To be proud

To stand alone

Is this world full of vipers

And ankle-biters

 

I lit incense

And candles

Lulled myself to calmness

Swaying to Beethoven and Mozart

Vivaldi kissed my lips; Chopin my spirit

The candlelight softened me

In both reflection and insight

For a moment, I felt lovely

My skin blessed by oranges and reds

Sharpened into art by shadows

 

I tried to remember

Who it was I dreamt of becoming

How that dream evolved

And destroyed itself

And stretched my hands out

Hoping to grasp a hand

To pull me forward

And help me rekindle

The dream of me

 

To redefine who I am

Who I wish to become

 

Am I truly

Who I am when I am with you

Or is this part of the mirror

An image draped in candlelight

Not quite real

Yet lovely because of the moment

 

I pray that I am

All I wish to be

That all that you see

Is real, true, and enough for you

I pray that my insecurities

Fall to the wayside

Weaken in your arms

As I strengthen the both of us

 

I am never weak

Only fearful when alone

I am never failed

Merely lost in my own past

I am not sad

Merely envisioning happiness more than I have

And I am not alone

Merely wishing you were here by my side.

 

I love you.

 

Reviews

[Young Mountain]

I like pieces like these. Love is such a vulnerable feeling and it can evoke so much emotion, it's interesting to see how different people express it. This felt lonely at times.

"I pray that I am All I wish to be That all that you see Is real" - I liked this line a lot, can't really put my finger on it, it just popped when I read it.

Thanks for sharing