Devoted

You gave me life, but never showed me how to live

I feel happy

For you

Once I drown myself 

For you

In toxins

I'll aspirate

I am decaying

Alive

For you

You gave me life,

And expect me to know how to live.

I punish myself

I refuse to be happy

Because I'll never be good enough

For you.

I gave up years ago

on myself

I didn't believe in you

But you're still here for me

and now I need to figure out why I'm here.

It's taken me all this time

You've never seen

I'm only here for you.

Worst of all,

I'm pathetic.

I'd do anything

Not for you,

But for all of you. 

I just want you to feel happy, to be proud.

I miss you.

Author's Note

EDITS, CONSTRICTIVE CRITICISM, AND COMMENTS ARE VERY WELCOME.