Alone Forever To Be

Is it okay if i cried on your shoulder?..

and held you a lil closer..

my life is just getting colder..

would you mind..

if i didn't let go?..

just wanna leave everything behind..

got nowhere to hide..

when i said i was happy.. i lied..

no one ever knew; the nights i cried..

could you bring back all them feelings that died?

not sad. just alone..

just don't show in my tone..

So take my hand..

dont leave me standing..

in this harsh land

i don't want you to leave..

you my only relieve..

dose it mean am weak if i cry?

i got too much hurt inside

dont wanna lie..

but i am slowly dying..

daily trying;

to make it on my own..

just too much pride

to show am alone..

as am writing these lines

pain gave me teary eyes..

my life is so empty.. i can see the signs..

just got a weird pain in my chest..

and i really want to put it in rest..

i been doin' my very best..

but, a happy tear,,

wasn't what i had..

a happy home..

also, not what i had..

just rooms that are empty

like me..

locked up in my world..

i so wanna be free.. 

just cant find the key..

and all i can do is cry..

some look at me and ask me;

"But why?"

why do i cry till my tears dry..

why not keep my hopes up high..

why do i lie when i replay;

"i wasn't crying"

in my mind i say;

"..Again just slowly dying"

i don't have to be.. forever happy..

but can i get a taste of it?

i'm losing patience; i admit..

forget about happiness..

i just need a worm hug..

to take away this loneliness..

and fill up my emptiness

so tell me.. 

the word; Happy

is it my distant..?

of am i just acting nosey?

asking for something thats not meant to be for me..

could it be?..

the title of my life.. 

"Alone Forever To Be.."..

maybe i don't have tunnel vision..

but thats what i see..

just.. me..